Well not very long after I posted here about not being excited, on Friday night at midnight my water broke. Unfortunately for me I did not go into active labour on my own I was just having on and off contractions which weren't strong and had no pattern. My doula came over on Saturday at 2pm and we did some acupuncture/reflexology. The hospital kept calling and telling me I had to come in but I desperately did NOT want to be induced.

At 5 pm we got to the hospital and I discussed my options with them but because I was only 1cm dialated and my cervix was still long and not in labour I had no choice but to take the pitocin. I was severely disappointed because I wanted a natural childbirth and with pitocin your contractions come on so quickly it's ridiculous. Needless to say I was still determined to not get pain medication.

By 8:30pm they had me on the maximum dose of pitocin becuase my contractions were still not regular. By 2am they were coming on STRONG and often 3 in a row with no time to even breathe and I was only 2cm dialated with a long road ahead of me. By 4am the contractions were between 30 secs and a minute apart (somtimes two at a time) and I was breathing so hard to try to catch my breath inbetween. I started hyperventilating (I don't remember this but I imagine I was breathing too quickly) because my hands and feet were going tingly and I was told to cup my mouth and nose in my hands to breath inbetween contractions.

At 4:30am I said I wanted the epidural and an HOUR (Very brutal hour!) later I got it. I swear it was absolute heaven at that point. It didn;t hurt at all to get done and I could still move my legs around perfectly and lift my legs to sleep how I wanted.

At 8am they checked me again and I was 9cm. By 9am I was fully dialated and had a STRONG urge to push. They noticed at this point that there was a little bit of meconium. I kept getting told to wait, so I did and then at 9:30 I started pushing.They turned off my epidural, but regardless I could still feel everything before hand and held my own legs up. At 9:53 am weighing in at 7lbs 7oz, 20 inches long Kalyna joined this world. I felt like I hardly pushed her out at all! I tore minimally and got 4 stitches but all small tears that she said were to be expected. I then got put on antibiotics because my water had been broken for 34 hours.


She is soo beautiful She doesn't feel like she's mine. She is definitely NOT peaceful and I call her grumpy pants lol


I'm having a horrible time with her latching because she prefers screaming so i'm doing cup and finger feeding right now while pumping out some colostrum. Hopefully that gets better soon!