It doesn't really sound like an exact match to me... but then again it's hard to tell via the internet. If you feel there is something off, it is worth going in to get a professional opinion. A therapist would be useful to at least give you an objective opinion about what you are feeling and help you decide if it's something you'll need continue therapy for or not.

I am borderline personality

I hated it when my ex left, after we had a fight. I would cut myself so that I would feel better. I didn't want to kill myself. I just wanted attention from my ex.

This is not the first time I have reacted this way,

There is no medication to take to fix this problem, it is a long term counseling that is needed. I have not went to counseling yet for my condition.

I am in a new relationship - and i don't feel insecure like I use to with my ex. I finally feel like I have gotten away from the BPD problem. For now anyway.

I hope things work out for you.

I think its impossible to say over the net whether you hav bpd or not but their is a few things that you mentioned that I can relate to as I suffer simular things, among many many others.

I've only just been diagnosed with BDP so don't know all their is to know about it but this is what I can gather from what my Therepist said and what I've looked up myself.

I read that 1.6million people in the Uk alone have this condition (and I bet thjat's only the reported cases) and it can cause immense isolated pain and confusion.

I get symtoms of overly exagerated emotions, kinda like the little things that'd make "normal" (whatever that is) people uncomfortable/anxious/angry/happy/sad etc etc would make me react like 50times as bad. Everyone suffers with these things and its only thought of as a problem if it stops you doin things to avoid these situations.

I have a lot of feelings of guilt and suspision, paranoier the list goes on n on but everyone is different and some of my symptoms may be more or less than others depending on the indervidual and i believe it also depends on things that have happend in your life to mould you one way or another.

My therepist was saying that people normally notice it about 12/13 some people even earlier - like me - i've always felt like i've not quite fitted in etc right from say middle school.

When we're kid we pick up things from our parents that mould us into the way we act n behaive, so say for instance your little and for whatever reason your feelin angry, so u go to your mother for attention of some sort, if the parent then ignors the child or lashes out etc then the child pick's up on this negative behaivour n thing wow - i won't do that again and eventuly learns to suppress the anger or whatever so's not to get that bad reaction again.
In a way its kinda like some of the things we should learn as a kid are missing, like how to regognise and deal with anger, these holes need to be filled in and the best way to do that is by seeking professional help.

My therepist who's from an organisation from my local area and free for me, i was referred by my clinical pshycologist (who i was referred to by my doc) there was a long waiting list but it seems this is the best form of treatment on offer, they use techniques such as Cognitive Behaviour Therepy and something else that i can't remember.

Basically they teach u the skills to deal with these everyday issues etc that are such a problem for people with BPD to deal with, to handle them in a more rational ways.

Since being diagnosed i really feel a lot better just knowing that there are others out there with the same thing, before it was just lik e"oh you've got deppression/anxiety" but that's so wide streched that i always felt like i wasn't gettin the right support and that there was more to it than that.

Hope that's of some help hun,
peace ;0)
xx

i also have bpd.....its sooo hard to live with, i feel the exact same way as you do, my moods go up and down, ill freak out on my mom, friends, and my bf for absulutly no reason. especially my bf, we live together so once incident was he wanted to watch a certain movie that he saw about 50 million times so i freaked out on him and kicked him out, so he went to his dad's house for 5 days...and in that 5 days this "friend" of mine and his told me that she was having phone sex with him, and all this other stuff...so that just totally freaked me out even more,,, and we got into a bigger fight and i took him back cuz i found out shes a liar, but anyways my everyday life is fighting wit my mom nd bf over the littlest things, i dont trust anyone, i pretty much hate everyone that i kno, im very very sexually active and thats one symptom of bpd, im scared to be alone, i hate rejection and i dont seek any help for it, im a cutter, i tried to commit suicide many times, i get severe panic attacks sometimes i cant even leave my house cuz of it,,,,,,i suggest that u get help for it ASAP and get the right theropist and try to talk to ppl, cuz this disorder is sooo hard to live with it just ruins your life..........hope i helped

Bloddy hell, sounds so simular to me! I literally freak out at my bf over nxt to nothing (but to me it feels like a massive thing) then straight afterwards I feel this total n utter feelin of guilt. but then sometimes when I am upset I also get this thing where I feel like Nick (bf) isn't being there enough for me, like not supporting me and doesn't really giv that much of a damn. then i'll have more of a go at him....then feel guilty again.

I say really nasty vindictive things that i know I dnt mean (and luckily my blokes knows too - that doesnt mean he's always that understandin bout it tho) and can be SO sarcastic. Its weird coz i feel like i can here my mum's voice coming out of my mouth (she was always shouting and screaming wen i lived with her) and that sickens me as I don't want to be such a messed up angry person as her. Maybe she had the same thing then? we share a lot of those characteristics - any1 know if it can be genetic?

If not i guess it's proberbly easy enough to pick summut like that up after all all we are wen we're popped out is a blank canvass and learn to do what others do around us.

Do we think this is cureable then? Bugger livin like this 4ever! xx

ya the same here, its horrible, if anyone knows of any help please write me and let me kno. i have AIM heres my screen name its dysfunctional424 thanx

I have BPD and what you are sayng is what i am going thorough now and have benn for the past 2 years.


You need to speak to someone who can help, trust me it helps.

i thought that was just part of being a woman.my ex and my mother are like this.i didn't know that there might be something there. im sorry to sound sexist or demeaning. i really don't mean to be.i feel for you. because i now know what they are going through.thank you all for teaching me about this.now i can be more sensitive towards them.

There are many symptoms associated with BPD - I know because I have it.
A person with borderline personality disorder often has unstable relationships, low self-esteem, and problems with impulsive behavior, all of which begin by early adulthood.

A common feature of this disorder is fear of being left alone (abandoned), even if the threat of being abandoned is not real. This fear may lead to frantic attempts to hold on to those around you and may cause you to become too dependent on others. Sometimes you may react to the fear of being abandoned by rejecting others first before they can reject you. This erratic behavior can lead to troubled relationships in every area of your life.
People who are diagnosed with borderline personality disorder have at least five of the following symptoms. They may:
-Make frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
-Have a pattern of difficult relationships caused by alternating between extremes of intense admiration and hatred of others. Splitting only seeing things in black or white, no gray area.....
-Have an unstable self-image or be unsure of his or her own identity.
-Act impulsively in ways that are self-damaging, such as extravagant spending, frequent and unprotected sex with many partners, substance abuse, binge eating, or reckless driving.
-Have recurring suicidal thoughts, make repeated suicide attempts, or cause self-injury through mutilation, such as cutting or burning himself or herself. Suicidal behavior is common in people with borderline personality disorder, with close to 10% of those with the disorder completing suicide
-Have frequent emotional overreactions or intense mood swings, including feeling -depressed, irritable, or anxious. These mood swings usually only last a few hours at a time. In rare cases, they may last a day or two.
-Have long-term feelings of emptiness.
-Have inappropriate, fierce anger or problems controlling anger. The person may often display temper tantrums or get into physical fights.
-Have temporary episodes of feeling suspicious of others without reason (paranoia) or losing a sense of reality.

Other Conditions that frequently occur with borderline personality disorder include
-Depression or other mood disorders (for example, dysthymic disorder).
-Eating disorders, especially bulimia nervosa.
Substance abuse problems.
-Bipolar disorder, which is depression with episodes of mania.
-Panic attacks or panic disorder.
-Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD).

BPD can be managed by LOTS of therapy and possibly medications. It is hard to overcome as the person with BPD must overcome and/or come to terms with their fear of abandonment before they can truly become healthy.

All these things sound like a part of life and growing up. If you think 'everyone else' doesn't get feelings of emptiness, fear abandonment or drive recklessly sometimes, I'd say people aren't being honest with you. Obviously, not everyone feels suicidal, but most of these things seem like they could be caused by self-esteem problems and a general feeling of aimlessness. In a culture that's largely void of substance and designed to sell you caca you don't need by making you feel inadequate, I would say that should be the expected outcome. The fact that 1.6 million people in the UK have been 'diagnosed' makes me think it's just a good way to get people to come to the therapist's office.

To the original poster, you just sound like you have an active imagination and you like to think critically. Lots of people hear something and only think of one meaning; imagine trying to interpret art with a person like that... Kudos for researching and trying to categorize your symptoms! To me it just sounds like the reality of being young and not completely used to your own emotions and those of others (can't expect everyone to feel the same as you right?). I'd say talk more with your boyfriend, less with the therapist, drive slower and listen to some chill music in the car. Anyway, I think anyone can see these symptoms in their life and create all sorts of problems for themselves if they're absolutely convinced they have this disorder. People have enough to worry about without categorizing all of their problems as BPD; deal with one issue at a time and I bet it'll start looking less like a syndrome and more like learning about living.