Ok, for ..what I would say has been close
to a month at the maximum. I have been
having an odd sort of pressure just what
feels like on the inside of the skull. It
may start whenever, but Ive noticed more
often that its seems to occur more often
when I'm reading, or working on something
that may require thought processes at a
rapid pace. To give you a brief history,
my dad was in a horribly work related
accident when I was in 10th grade in High
School. I turned to things that made me
feel better for the better part of around
three years. THC, and MDMA on occasion,
and pain killers. For close to a year now
though Ive been doing good just going back
to school to try and catch up on some
classes, and working at my job with AT&T.
Haven't been into anything illegal, or
anything that could really harm my health
for that matter. So its just been weird
that lately Ive had this pressure come up,
which sometimes if it lasts long enough
may result in a sharp pain here, a sharp
pain there, or a full fledge headache. Mom
suggest that it could be this or that,
such as sinus problems, or something
similar. What concerns me though is that
it seems to be when I'm .., well like I
said participating in things like reading,
or working on other things that involve
rapid thought processes. For example. I
may be reading, and then I will just start
to skip and skim across words, jumping
here and there, and not really
focusing..like I knew I once did even in
the peak of the time I was making poor
decisions. Also when I'm trying to explain
something to someone, its hard for me to
stay on topic much, I may begin to explain
one thing to you, and start to jump all
over the place it seems, and in the end
just lose where I was going with it.
Things I do as of now consist of getting
up in the morning, skipping breakfast
about half the time, and for awhile
drinking two Monster energy drinks to get
my day started. Which I have done up until
just recently. Since when I decided to
start taking ginkgo Biloba for its "mental
sharpness" and mega teen vitamins thinking
this might help the problem I'm having. I
have still noticed though with it only
being about three days since I started
cutting back on the energy drinks etc..
and taking vitamins that the pain still
persists and its worrying me that I could
have possibly brain damage to some degree.
I hoping that I'm just completely wrong
and there is a more logical explanation
for the pain, pressure, and confusion I am
having. If any of you have any thoughts or
opinions please to feel free to express
them with me, as I am grateful for any,
and I mean ANY insight you might have.
-IllusionalSky