Well ive been going out with this girl for awhile now and i never knew i could feel this way again. My first love broke my heart into millions of pieces but the healing process i had after we broke up was hard, unbearable, and caught me off guard. Cause I met this girl (the one that ive been dating) and she helped me through it and built me up. She was the one i turned to and did what she could to help. Then i realized she was the one so i focused my energy on her and then we fell in love, and i fell hard. She was a breath of fresh air. So, we had our differences and problems and i admit that i could of handled things differently. She didnt like some things i did so i wanted to make changes to help us out, so i compromised on a couple of things. She wouldnt of been with me if i didnt and i knew i had to stop cause thats how much she means to me.
So, about a month ago, when we were arguing and fighting over something small like usual, she said she needed a break and to give her space. It was hard to take but I did it for her. Then like about a week into the break, she texted me and got mad at me for "not doing anything and not coming after her." I told her im trying to give her what she wanted. Then i realized damn why didnt i do anything, would that of meant we would be together if i tried to get her back? Then we talked and we agreed to take it slow until we worked things out and just to take it slow..... that didnt really happen.... We still did the same things but it was just different. Like we werent together but we were, i dont know. Then we went out to eat like a week and a half ago and she asked me why i dont say i love her anymore like usual. And i told her cause i dont want to get my hopes up but just casue i dont say it doesnt mean i dont. (i used to say it all the time and she even told me) so now im confused about what she said. but then the shocker came when she said i think we are doing good, and i said i think we are too. And it was great when she said that cause i was like damn i really love this girl.
But 2 days after that she got mad cause i usually text her in the morning before i go to work just to say good morning but i was running late, it was a friday and work is crazy, and just didnt get around to it. She calls me at work and i took a break and answered my phone. and i was excited she called. She said why didnt u text me and i said stupidly, i forgot. And then i heard the dial tone..... She got pissed and said why would you say you forgot to text your girlfriend. I said im sorry like 10 times, called left a message, texts... everything... Then i got off of work and she had work so i called her work and said dont be mad, just call me after you get off and we will hang out and she said ok. So she usually gets off at 830 and she told me it was going to be busy so i thought i will give her until 9 to call and 930 rolls around and she didnt call. then 1015 comes around and i called her. i said where are you, she replied at my friends, and i said why didnt you call me when you got off, and she said "oo i forgot." i took that as a slap in the face cause i didnt mean to not text her. i got upset about taht and we didnt talk for about aday. and then it went down hill. she is done she said and she is not in love with me but still loves me. now she says she will never go out with me again and i said was it cause of the no text, and she said no it was everything and she said she fell out of love awhile back. Im stuck right now and like broken.... I dont want to lose her and cant stop thinking about her and thinking of ways to get her back. She means the world to me, we talked about our future and everything. and She keeps telling me we are done and ill be fine, and stop thinking about it and lets move on. And the dagger was that she said im not the one and there is someone else out there that will treat her better then me.
sorry its long but anything could help me out right now, especially a girl's perspective.