Sexual Health - Men Forum - ejaculation-related brain problems

Hi, I am new here. I was wondering if you can help me with my problems. Thanks.

For the past several years, I have had a consistent, weird health problem with my brain and ejaculation and things like that. I have had much difficulty getting help for it, because it is sometimes difficult for me to keep track of and express my symptoms to doctors, who often end up do not believing me because of it. And there is no visible external effects that can be easily seen. I also cannot talk to friends or family about it because of the subject matter, and so I was wondering if I can get a second opinion from someone here.

If I ejaculate during the day (i.e. I wasn't sleeping before), and I try to sleep, it is very difficult to fall asleep. For a limited time, I get this fatigue in parts of the brain, but when I go to lie down, my brain doesn't want to go to sleep. My heart rate increases and the surface of my body warms up (all the blood goes to the skin, my face and even forehead blushes, and it becomes impossibly hot to sleep). The more I try to relax, the more the heart rate goes up, etc. This is why I only ejaculate in the middle of the night (i.e. I was sleeping before, and I can immediately go back to sleep again).

I ejaculate every few days (about every 3 to 6 days) in this "cycle", not because I want to because of any sexual desire or anything, but because there is this very uncomfortable increasing "pressure" that forces me to do it. It's hard to explain. I feel it especially when I try to sleep. It is this tightness in my chest that gets worse as the days go on. It feels like my muscles want to contract, especially the front muscles of my chest, to curl into a ball. I also get this weird (maybe "tender") sensation in or above my heart on my left side, and a feeling that the beat is heavy as if something thick is going through it. My sleep also becomes restless. I think it's the sensation you get when you become nervous or anxious (?), although I am not really sure, and there is no conscious source of nervousness at all. After like 2 or 3 days, I can still, with a lot of effort, successfully ignore it through the night; but it gets worse every day. After about 4 or 5 days, it makes me so restless that I cannot get much sleep at all, so I have to give in. The only way to relieve this is to ejaculate. Ejaculation spreads this counter-sensation that spreads through my body that numbs everything, and kind of counter-acts the nervousness in my heart (I feel as if there were competing forces in my heart).

To avoid creating problems for my sleep the next night, I immediately go back to sleep after I ejaculate. (I can do this usually if I was sleeping before.) When I go back to sleep after I ejaculate, the episodes of sleep will be very intense (intense, realistic dreams, etc.). I usually force myself to get up after the first episode of sleep (usually about 30 minutes long), because of the terrible problems I will describe below. Over the years, by trial and error, I have adapted to a schedule which is less bad, to ejaculate after about 6 hours of sleep, and only sleep for about 30 minutes afterwards. And if I then have a full waking day before I next sleep, then it seems that I can escape most of the bad effects on my brain, but not all.

If I get more that about half an hour of sleep after I ejaculate, or if I take a nap in the next few hours, I undergo this terrible process that I can't really describe but it feels like much of my brain is "melting" away. There is this feeling of soreness or "sourness" in certain regions of my brain, and I can taste this "sourness" (I don't really know how to call it) sensation in my saliva, and the mucus when I sneeze (which I do more). I sneeze more and the mucus also feels of this sensation. I think this "sourness" is the feeling that the lymph nodes in my neck are swollen (I don't know why they would be). These events are also strongly linked with a significant increase in sneezing (I have allergies year-round, but it gets worse because of this). The symptoms and effects seems to get better during waking hours, and worse during naps and stuff. After the next sleep cycle, it feels like my brain is kind of dead, doesn't really want to think, or anything; lacking motivation.

In addition, there are other symptoms that accompany this "degeneration" of the brain in the day following. My muscles seem weaker to command (it takes a lot more effort to hold tight). My sensory nerves all over my body seems to be sending me some kind of low, continuous "static" signal. When my skin is scratched, it feels more painful, like my skin is thin and hasn't healed in a long time. My jaw has a slight desire to clench with slight shaking. Some of these seem to be symptoms of Chronic fatigue syndrome. Over the next few days, it seems to get a little better, until the next ejaculation cycle hits. If I keep to the schedule of doing it late in the night and not sleeping much afterwards for a long period of time (a few months), my mind feels better; but it is very difficult to keep sometimes.

From the initial effects, damage to the brain that is maybe associated with the immune system (the swelling of the lymph nodes, and the effects on allergies), I thought it might have something to do with an autoimmune disease. But none of the conditions I've read seem to be associated with something like ejaculation, or have a frequency of around a few days. I've also thought that (because of the association with ejaculation) maybe it has to do with problems with various sex hormones; especially like testosterone is toxic to the brain (or something); but have not had any luck there either.

There is also another unusual thing I wanted to mention. Sometimes I get irritable and frustrated easily, and avoid thinking about new things. I have come across a way or a "technique" of dealing with it. I can do this thing whereby I breathe in slowly through my nose and mouth at the same time, tilt back my head (kind of what I imagine people do when they "get high"), and focus on the back of my nose / head. After I do this a few times, my anger and frustration with everything goes away, I feel a wave or stimulation or feeling across the top of my brain.

Then I am able to think more clearly and thoughtfully. It is not the feeling of being unusually rejuvenated or energetic, but instead the feeling that I am honestly able to think through things in a reasonable way, and make good judgments all of a sudden. The effect, however, doesn't last long -- maybe 10 to 20 minutes. And after about 45 minutes to an hour, there is a very consistent and strong after-effect where I "crash" -- my mind becomes suddenly extremely tired. My body is not tired; just my mind; and I usually have to put my head down on a table and let my mind shut off for about 10-20 minutes, while I breathe in and out regularly. I am not sure if this has to do with my problems described above, but it is something else that is interesting that I can't explain and I also wonder if it is normal.