I don't know what to do i have been
throwing up after eating for about 2 years
now! i stopped eating once 4 a week and
then went drinking and got really badly
drunk then my mum found out i stopped
eating and she started watching me and
making sure i was eating so then i started
throwing up after eating again and then i
started going down hill always trying to
skip meals and i would even go about 3
days without eating. But then it got worse
and i didn't eat 4 8 weeks and my weight
went down rapidly! Then one day i just
really really wanted 2 be normal again
because, it was even getting hard for me
to have a drink because, i just felt sick
and awful after i had had something to
drink so, i told my step dad about it and
then i started getting loads of help and
now i am seeing two counsellors a dietion
and a pedatriction but, they don't seem to
be helping and I am getting fed up of
telling my story to them all. It has been
about a month since i told my step dad and
the counsellors have got me eating a
quater of a sandwhich a day and this week
they want me to try eating half a
sandwhich. But i can eat it but after it i
go and throw it up and do loads and loads
of excersises. But i don't know how to
tell anyone because, i think they will be
disappointed in me and i think my mum will
start watching me all the time again and i
don't want that. I don't know what to do.
I felt awful wed night after i had had
something to eat even though i threw up
and did loads and loads of excersies i
still felt sick and fat and felt like crap
and now i havent eaten since then but, my
mum is trying to get me to have something
but i really don't want to. I really feel
like giving up because, i don't feel that
i will ever get better and be normal and I
feel like i will always be throwing up and
not eating for 3 or 4 days for the rest of
my life. I just don't know what to do
please will someone help me.
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antigone
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Posted: 05-24-08 12:14pm
Please reconsider what you are doing. You
need to talk to your counselors. They need
to understand what you are thinking to be
able to help you. There is some emotional
trigger that has caused your eating
disorder. This needs to be explored in
order to get to the root of why you have
an eating disorder. This disorder has life
threatening consequences. It is imperative
that you open up and talk to your mum. Let
her know that if she pressures you that
you shut down and won't eat. Let her know
you need her support without judgement.
Perhaps you can tell your stepdad this. I
hope you will consider this. If you want
to beat this you must work hard. It is not
an easy road. You are going to feel like
giving up at times but you need to realize
you are strong. You can do this. Life can
be pretty amazing. Choose life and find
out how amazing it can be.
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xoxlil_joxox
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 May 2008 Posts: 6
Posted: 05-25-08 04:16am
thank you for your advice it really helped
me i have now talked to my mum and
explained it to her. i don't know weather
she fully understands how i feel though
but i can't really explain it in words. I
think she is disappointed in me though and
i think she is worring to much as she was
on about giving up her job up to look
after me and help me get better but i told
her i don't want her to. I'm jut worried
about when i do get better from this and
when my mum stops watching me 24/7 that i
will sart again. I just keep thinking that
I'm going to always be bullimic for the
rest of my life and i'm always getting
really really down and depressed about it
and just don't know what to do or where to
turn.
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glitchtastic
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 May 2008 Posts: 8 Location: ,
Stop Posted: 05-26-08 13:43pm
I understand. I've been trying too, and
it's very difficult even if you talk to
people. Sometimes it isn't enough to just
talk, but the doctor can prescribe meds to
help. I still haven't found anything that
is truly preventative, but talking to
someone who can help without being
overbearing is the best thing I can think
of. Sorry, ut I would avoid telling people
that would pressure you, because that just
makes it worse. :/ I think you need
people's reassurance, not disappointment.
