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Lol123

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having a psychosis ? Posted: 05-13-08 00:55am


I don't think I am, here is whats happened.. I feel like the whole world is a set up. Everybodys knows about it apart from me, maybe something like the Truman Show. I have a strong feeling that people can read my thoughts too, imo people have made it pretty obvious - For example if I take an interest in something or there is something that is bothering me then there is usually alot of TV shows on the subject in the following weeks. I don't even understand how it would be possible for you to read my thoughts, or why you would even do this sort of thing because its evil. I don't even know whats really going on anyway, I just suspect that there has been alot of set ups and stuff. Like.. I thought it was weird that nobody killed that many people in a school shooting, then CHO killed like 40. I take an interest in something, for example I thought people were laughing at me in the street because i looked anorexic and about six programs on anorexia appear on my TV in the following weeks. If it was just this then I could say that maybe it was a coincidence but it has happened with alot of my thoughts. Yeah, people laugh at me in the street, like they know stuff about me. Its not just a little "Giggle" like you would expect if it was because of the way you looked, alot of the times its been a full on laugh. So this leads me to think that people somehow have access to infomation about me. People have said things about me in the street aswell. Like "Cry Baby"..after I cried last time all these suspicions came into my head . And "Why are you on your own" - "Because nobody likes him". How would people know these sort of things if they weren't watching me? I don't understand how it could be a psychosis if I don't hallucinate and if all these things didnt happen - then I wouldnt suspect anything. Its scary stuff lol Its sending me crazy aswell, because I don't know whats happening. It could be a simulation or something, I don't know - because nobody will tell me. It feels like you're trying to push me the over the edge and hope I commit suicide or something. I don't even know what I've done to deserve this. ? PLEASE STOP.

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Posted: 05-13-08 01:03am


i've been called things in the streets, but that is because of how i look. they don't know anything about me. and with the anorexic thing, it's like the number 666. if it wasn't a renowned number you would never notice it. but when you know it's the number of the beast you notice it. you probably never noticed things about anorexia until you started thinking about it.

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Posted: 05-13-08 07:26am


I have also had similar thoughts about thing happening because I was thinking about something. Like I needed to go shopping and needed margerine, so whenever I went to the shops to buy some it was always on buy one get one free. I thought cool they're reading my mind and giving me special offers. The voices that I hear can also read my mind, some are ok and you can communicate with the through some sort of telepathic matrix. While others try to say that hearing my thoughts is controling their minds/action and try and blame me for the things that they are doing. That's why they're trying to kill my family, as they have said. They do try to hide/change their voices so that I can't tell who they are, unless they are like me. I have spoken and heard my own sisters voice coming from my mouth, I don't know how they change people around. As for the 666 thing, each of my three names consist of 6 letters, so I thought I was the antichrist or something evil. One thing I can say is don't let them get to you, it's not your fault and don't commit suicide, it's not the way to go. I would definately go to your local doctor and seek some medical advice, you never know he may be able to help. Write down what you need to say and use the notes in your meeting, even let him have them if you can't get everything across.

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oh dude Posted: 05-13-08 10:05am


hey there...the same thing happened to me im greek the things i had in my mind were presented on the TV and were told by strangers and stuff...dude go see a doctor...u are 100% having a psychosis or paranoid schizophrenia or how its called...i was diagnosed schizophrenic and im still taking drugs cos of hallucinations although i dont think ppl are aftert me....i also thought ppl wanted me dead and stuff i thought that conspiracies were made on me..sorry for the bad use of english---john. this happened before 1 year and 2 weeks or so....poor you....we are not lucky mate...but it happens....be strong and face it..go see a doctor before u totally get mad like me...or commit suicide ..like me. if u wanna learn more message me.... s***t happens. be strong. the doctor said ill be totally ok in a couple of months..had a meeting with him yesterday and he told me that i am allowed not to use the one out of two drugs i was taking--my english sucks....message me if u wanna learn more...i had a psychosis like you then it leaded to schizo cos i had visual hallucinations

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Posted: 05-13-08 12:15pm


Hey,I`m having almost the same problem as you,except that I`m thinking that nothing is real and I`m experimented on by scientists.I can`t help myself,but I wish I could help you.First of,your life is not a set up.If it was it would be all over now or we would have killed you by now if we wanted you dead.It doesn`t really matter do you believe me or not,because you have to believe in yourself.Maybe you secretly want your life to be a set up,but you haven`t realized it yet?Look deeper. Also,about the anorexia thing-when I had bulimia the internet and new and tv were clouded with topics about anorexia,bulimia and girls around my age dying from it.If then I was in my current way of thinking,I would probably think it is strange too.But if you really have psychosis,then the first rule is not to trust what you think.When you are not interested in something,you just don`t pay attention,while if you are almost obsessed with it it appears everywhere,but it is just because you are paying attention then. And people laugh at many others,it is maybe just because you are more sensitive,no one is reading your mind.they may be all in your mind as you suspect so go see a doctor. And don`t hurt yourself no matter what happens.

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Posted: 05-13-08 17:31pm


I also thought the same thing about scientists experimenting on me. And I didnt even say that I thought people were all in my head, just a simulationCoincidence? lol. More suspicions and stuff.. When I was in high school somebody said near me "So and So told me everybody who he masterbates over in school" and then glanced at me and laughed. (See my thoughts?) Also in high school I got puched. Some girl knew about it, and didnt even know any of the people involved. She knew something else that she shouldnt have aswell. One of my "Friends" - actor? simulated bot? lol? - told me that he never laughs when he's on his own incase somebody is wacthing him. At the time I only laughed in public aswell, because I couldnt be arsed to make the effort by myself lol. Abit suspicous? When I had this phase where I thought I was gay (I'm not) - this same friend touched my arse (Testing me for a reaction?) started chatting about how he "Loves" me in a joke kind of way. And on a different day I looked after his house for him and he said he left a picture of his dick in one of the folders in his computer and showed me which one and everything like they were testing me to see if I would look. I thought recentley that I was in hell, like hitler or something. i switched on to this christian raido a few days later and this guy says "Hell is real. Hitler will pay for what he has done. I dont mean hell as in fire. but there is a hell, and you face total annalation. People laugh at me in the street like i said they also stared at me and spat next to me on the floor. i thought it was because people thought i was a seriel killer due to other "delusions" and i went to this nurse about it. And I noticed when I said "If people left me alone, then my mental health would be fine" and "i wanna run away to a town where nobody knows me" she quickly glanced away from me, this happened with two other mental health workers. I dont know if they did this so they could eventually cast doubt into my mind to get me like i am now, or they genuinely felt bad because I was being watched (doubt it). Also, when I took an internet in schizophrenia when I was like 13 or 14 my brothers best friend happened to be dignosed with it. Come on, what the heck is happening?

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Re: having a psychosis ?
Posted: 05-14-08 09:02am

Lol123 wrote:

Its sending me crazy aswell, because I don't know whats happening. It could be a simulation or something, I don't know - because nobody will tell me.

Didn`t you say that,or am I imagining things? Smile

Well,that really seems suspicious,but I am not out to get you,so I am sure that this is also for the rest of the world.I can`t really explain it,I can only say it could be a coincidence,but I don`t believe in such things.

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When I was in high school somebody said near me "So and So told me everybody who he masterbates over in school" and then glanced at me and laughed. (See my thoughts?)

Maybe he just said it as a joke and wanted you to laugh with him and that is why he looked at you.At least I could explain it that way.
And in high school news travel quickly,so don`t be so shocked if someone knows something that he shouldn`t or something he can`t know from anywhere.
about your other friend and his laughing,things like that happen to me too,but maybe he just wanted to share.I don`t know.;/
And the gay thing was probably a big joke from your friends. Wink

And nurses get thousands of patients everyday and maybe ten of them have your same thinking as you and they are just bored of this and that is why they look away,because they don`t want you to see their face saying ``Not another one``.Pathetic,I know.
Your case really is a hurtful one.And the strange thing is that I`m not even sure do you exist,but I still want to help you.If this world is real,then we are not out to get you.Be strong and get help. Smile

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Posted: 05-21-08 16:12pm


This is verry similair what i had VERRY similiar. Like if I think somthing and then people talk about that, or that the tv atacked me for somthing were I feel guilty for. After a time I didn't give a beep about it anymore, but It still happens its wierd. But it is really not true, I think nobody want to read my mind because they wouldnt follow it anyway

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Posted: 05-22-08 04:54am


Hi there. I was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis about 6 yrs ago. I have since recovered though. You are having a psychotic episode and you need to go get help. Tell your family about what is going on or admit yourself to the emergency dept as this is serious and you need medical attention... I've been there, thought the world was out to get me but THEY WEREN"T, thought that people were talking about me BUT THEY ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU. Nobody can read your mind. it's IMPOSSIBLE! Once you get some medication you'll start to feel better real quick. Do you believe in a god? I used to pray and meditate. just lie on your bed and imagine a white light. Then imagine that this white is going right through you whole body. Feel it in your fingers right down to your toes. If someone has made you unhappy on a particular day just imaging them standing on a stage. One by one look at them and shine this white light on them and say : YOUR WORDS AND ACTIONs CANNOT TOUCH ME. I can't remember if there was more to it but you can google WHITE LIGHT MEDITATION and some variations should come up. Try it. Please go and get some help.. Harmony1 xo