Well,
I took a personal day from work yesterday.
Was playing an online MMORPG that he and
I played together. I was on a 'toon' that
he doesn't know about so I could chill.
Low and behold, he logged on. He's been
on the game (it shows when your friends
last signed in) almost every day this
week, but always at odd hours.
I waited to see if he'd stay and I logged
onto a 'toon' that we usually play
together. The moment I logged in, he
logged off. Deciding that if he went to a
different 'toon' that I didn't know about
I wasn't going ot log off and make it seem
like he chased me off my game. Didn't
want him to think he has that much effect
on what I do. Almost two hours later he
came back. I thought about it for a good
20 minutes and decided that as an adult, I
should at least say hello.
He actually responded. Things were tense
and strained (to me). He didn't offer any
information or insight into what the hell
is going on and I didn't ask. . . YET. . .
We wound up playing together for about 5
hours in game before it got late.
I decided to leave first for the evening,
normally I'd hang on until he went to bed.
I said my goodnights, said I love you
like I usually would. He did NOT respond
with an I love you too, he just said
goodnight and logged off when I did.
We so have to talk about this, I'm trying
to let everything settle a little bit and
have a talk about where we stand and what
HE wants for the future
Then if he tells
me he still wants us to be together we
need to have a talk about acceptable
behaviour. LOL. . . and lack thereoff.
I'm SOOO not good at confrontation and
talks like this, I have NO idea how to
approach it. I've had small issues with
him over hte past two years that SHOULD
have resulted in a talk but I let them go
because I'd rather not argue with him.
This time I'm pissed enough that we talk
or it's OVER.
Anyhoo, sorry for rambling.
Later
