help for depression and anxiety Posted: 04-07-08 14:32pm
i had a run in the past where i was using
cocaine for around 4 months
i also had a bad ecstacy trip around 3
years that i feel i didnt ever overcome ,i
lost control of everything and became
paranoid and started having panic attacks
during my drug days,since then i never
been the same ,some times i just want to
scream uncontrolably ,i dont feel
connected with reality i start to have
racing thoughts,some times i feel like im
about to burst out yelling and breaking
stuff and that i dont wanna live any more
i dont know where i am or who am i ,i feel
scared and nervous all the time i start to
shake and get paranoid ,a few months ago i
had a nervous breakdown because of this
and i was given haldol(worst experience
ever) the haldol made me go crazy i
started screaming and crying i thought
something took over my body it was
horrible ,i was put in to a mental
institution where i was diagnosed with
bi-polar(which i think i a joke)the only
reason im depressed is because im so
scared,paranoid and have anxiety,im on 3
medicines,KLONOPIN,zyphrexa and
lamictal,but im loosing it and i feel like
im gonna hurt some one or myself because
im not in control any more its like
somebody is controlling me a deamon or
something ,everything is making me scared
and nervous ,everything i do i dont know
what to do.im depressed and
scared,everytime im out the smalest things
could make me nervous and then i feel like
im about to cry,i dont know what life is
or what people are im delirious and
confused i dont know what to do
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CarolDiane
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Vel Posted: 04-11-08 19:47pm
You sound like you can really use some out
patient help here. Continuous theropy IMHO
is needed. You sound like you should be
monitered more often with this. This
pretty much corrilates with with a severe
manic depression. Some do well with just
medication. And there are those that need
numerous theropy along with it. You need
to seek a good theropist ASAP. Especially
if you feel you could be a threat to
yourself or others. That is serious and
needs attention now.
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vel
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Posted: 04-11-08 20:09pm
i see a theropist but im scared to tell
him my self esteem issues
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 04-11-08 22:54pm
Your only hurting yourself by not
confiding in him. He can't treat what he
does not know about you. Your going to
have to open up so you can get the proper
help. That's the only way. You need to
have a well mind to have a well body.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 04-12-08 13:14pm
Why would you be afraid to tell your
therapist? That's the only way you can get
better. Anyway, isn't that what you're
paying him for? To hear your problems and
make you better? You have the
responsibility to be honest, and he has
the responsibility to do everything in his
power to make you better. That's how it
works. You do your part, and you can hold
him accountable for his part.
