Joined: 15 May 2008 Posts: 2 Location: united kingdom, Norfolk
I cut myself all the time and can't stop Posted: 05-16-08 00:25am
Hi I am really depressed all the time so I
started to scratch myself on purpose to
make red marks. I didn't see this as self
harm so I ignored the fact that I was
always doing it
After doing this for about a month I
suddenly upgraded to cutting instead. It
gave me a buzz and relief from all the
stress and depression. It was almost a
release. I don't do them very deep but it
is still cutting and they are deep enough
to scar.
The thing is I just can't stop doing it. I
have tried. I even got a self help guide
to stop and tried everything in it but I
am so weak willed that I always go back to
cutting. I want to stop but I don't have
enough willpower to stop. I am not looking
for attention but I wanted to get this of
my chest. I booked an immediant session to
see the counsellor but I am afraid that
she will not believe me when I say I can't
stop.
It is almost like an addiction. I am going
to continue even though it is damaging my
health and need to stop. I cut myself
everyday about 6 times daily. As you have
guessed it has gotten beyond a joke. It
wasn't a joke in the first place. I got so
depressed that I suddenly thought of
hurting myself for being such a pathetic,
worthless failure.
My Dad thinks I am suicidal but this is
not true. I do want to die but I wouldn't
try to kill myself. I am no attention
seeker either. I am just a girl that can't
stop cutting myself.
The only thing that stops me cutting is
being with my friends. But I can't be with
them all the time. They have college and
stuff to do. I don't want to keep
pestering my friends anyway. I don't see
what they like about me at any rate. I try
to keep myself occupied but at the end of
the day I find myself cutting myself. I
have tried to move all the sharp objects
from my bedroom but I managed to cut
myself with paper. See I am really bad.
Can you suggest anything to help me stop.
Please. I am not looking for attention I
just want help. My mum says I should get
help for my cutting and I really need
help. Thank you.
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jessicad7188
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Posted: 05-16-08 00:35am
i think being at the rate you say it is,
there really isnt anything anyone can say
to you to make you stop. theres something
inside of you that you have to find that
will make you stop. i used to do it and
one of the main things that made me stop
was realizing how useless is was and how
bad it looked. i didnt do it out of
depression or for attention (i never
really talked about it with anyone), i
just did it because i could and because i
was used to it. maybe you should try
occupying yourself with a hobby or a job
or some sort of extracurricular activity--
im not sure how old you are-- but you need
to gain confidence and find some outlet
for your stress besides cutting. also you
might wanna see a therapist. your saying
that you want to die is scary even if you
dont plan on killing yourself. im not
saying youre crazy, im just saying you
probably need to talk to someone, you need
to find out what makes you do this and
maybe then you can figure out how to stop
it. good luck!
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Niki09
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Posted: 05-16-08 16:42pm
i cant tell you how to stop or anything.
if i knew we would both be better off. i
just wanted to let you know you are not
alone. ive been doing it for 5 years.
its hard. i did finally maniage to get to
where i dont do it as often though. but i
still cant stop completely. so your not
alone. that should make you feel a little
better
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spongebob23
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Posted: 06-04-08 14:54pm
When i was looking for other ideas to stop
my cutting i looked up web sites to find
other aspects to make it less risky and i
found out that u can draw lines on the
area u want to cut or put a elastic band
on ur wrist and ping it wen u want to
cut..None of these helped me so hopefuly
they wil for u .
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