I don't know if this is the right kind of
place for a post like this, but I am
looking for a few answers or maybe some
direction?
All of my life I have been a very
unmotivated girl, looking back on it now -
from an early age I was never really made
to finish anything, I remember dropping
out of ballet at age 5 or 6, dropping out
of basketball at age 10, I never had to
finish my dinner (I was too fussy) and
then I dropped out of high school after
tenth grade.
I've had many jobs, all of which I get
bored with after about a year. I was
frustrated at my unhappiness in these jobs
thinking I'd rather work for myself, so I
moved on to 'starting' my own web design /
freelance business which fazed out after a
while, I wasn't bringing in enough money
due to my lack of motivation to do the
work with no supervision at home.
I don't know if the job part is connected,
maybe I just haven't found what I love
yet, but it's mostly my home life which
bothers me..
I'm just so unmotivated and lazy. Our
(husband and i) house is ALWAYS messy with
clutter, junk, rubbish etc. I, to put it
simply, cannot ever be bothered to put
things away, throw things in the bin etc
etc.
There are so many things I want to do in
my life such as gardening, home
renovations, scrapbooking, photography etc
etc, I am a very creative person, BUT I
usually just lie around and watch TV or
lose countless hours surfing the
internet.
I have a tendency for depression, I was
very depressed for about 6 years of my
teenage life which ended when I met my now
husband. I don't know if this is related?
Am I just lazy? How do I make myself get
up and go?
I am so jealous of people who do things
here and now, my parents are SO motivated,
if mum tells dad the fence is broken,
he'll jump up and fix it right away.
In comparison, my husband and I took two
years to flatten a mound of dirt in the
back yard so we could pave an outdoor
eating area. (and after all the hard work
assisted with by my father - we've used it
about 5 times and it's completely
overgrown with weeds now, after 2 years!)
& his car has been in our shed for
about 6 years pending a sanding/painting
job we were going to do to it. (this has
meant we have only had one usable car for
this past 6 yrs too which you think would
maybe motivate us to finish it? no, we are
now thinking of just selling it).
I could give you so many examples such as
these..
Any advice for a complicated girl like
me??
