Joined: 21 Nov 2007 Posts: 50 Location: Southern, United States
Losing Faith Posted: 03-17-08 14:21pm
I'm 19. Maybe this is just some latter
half of maturity, or the recent splitting
up of my gf, or what, i really don't know.
I've lost most of my faith in the world. I
can't find any beauty in the world
anymore. I used to be the happiest person
on the planet, but now just can't find a
reason to be. I should be, I have a
wonderful lfe (excluding the recent break
up). But all things considered I'm a very
lucky person. I just can't hold a good
feeling anymore. I feel like trying to do
anything meaningful is pointless now.
Everyone in this world is so terrified of
their own d*mn shadow, and terrorists, and
is obsessed with weightloss commercials
and reality tv, it feels like the world is
going to s**t from the inside out. I wish
I could go back to 7 years old, when girls
were gross and my biggest fear was that
saturday morning cartoons would be
canceled. Anybody know where I can find
smething look foward to in this place. Or
a time machine?
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marvel
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Posted: 03-17-08 14:40pm
I'm a firm believer that you make the
world what you want it to be. Sometimes it
means detaching yourself from what's
around you just to gain a little
perspective. Be a bit selfish and examine
what YOU want and what you want out of the
world. I assure you that you can attain
it, you might just have to rearrange your
perceptions a little bit.
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samba88
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Nov 2007 Posts: 50 Location: Southern, United States
Posted: 03-17-08 15:37pm
But that's just it. I feel detached to a
freakish degree. I feel like I'm slowly
slipping out of the really great world I
used to live in. And I also agree that
everyone's world is what they make it, and
mine used to be so great bc I made it that
way. But now no matter how hard I try to
make it that way I can get it to stick.
It's like I made my world so good for so
long that I used up all my good thoughts
at the start of life and now I'm out of
it.
I dont want to sound dramatic or scary,
but I often think about suicide. I would
never ever EVER do it ever, bc I just
couldnt do that to my friends and family
and I am aware of how good my life is and
how stupid that would be, but it seems
like such an easy escape.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 03-19-08 01:04am
This is not an easy world to live in
anymore. I can sympathise with you to ever
extent. But, it's a world we have to put
up with. Things are going up in price
while our pay checks stay the same. I know
for a fact, if I did not have my boys
helping me out, I don't really know what I
would do. Out on the street I guess. One
thing I am very happy about is the fact
you would not end your life bc it would
have such an affect on those that love
you. Hang in there and try to make the
best of the world we have no choice of
living in. It's the only place we have.
