I don't know where to start really, my
mood first of all are ever changing, i'll
just feel uncontrolably sad for no reason
one minute i'll just cry and be
inconsolable but i don't know why. The
next minute i'll be happy, then angry and
i just don't understand why. I have a
constant monologue going on in my head,
constantly talking to myself in my head, i
can't make decisions, i just can't even
something like what i'm going to eat. I
analyis everthing far too much. I will
just sit and think about something so much
especially when trying to make a decision,
and i never find the answer because i
analyis it to a point where nothing seems
right.
I do strange things that i'm sure people
don't do, like count lamposts and not be
able to stop until i just grab hold of
myself and tell myself repeatedly to stop
i will eventually stop but not for a
while. Or turn the light switch on and
off, why do i do that? i know its off but
i'll continue to switch it back on.
Someone once told me about Obsessive
compulsive disorder but i dont think its
that because 'm not bothered about
cleanliness or anything and i dont do
these things all of the time.
Its like i have 2 people fighting for
there right to speak in my head, but they
are always trting to convince me that the
other is lying and there right but i never
know who to believe.
I go to work, i work in a normal job, i
have relationships and friends. I have
major trusts issues, always not quite
sure, the other day i thlught my boyfriend
who i know and love and have been with for
2 years was plotting to kill me, i shook
the idea off and ignored it but should it
of been there in the first place. I don't
know what to do.
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melancholydaye
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very very simular Posted: 05-27-08 07:35am
go to a therapist. i have simular issues,
with crazy scenarios going on in my head
all of the time. when i'm with friends i'm
always really distant and they always ask
me what is wrong, but i can't help it.
don't be afraid of the therapist, i was
really embarrassed to go at first, ashamed
is a more appropriate word. but i talk to
her and she really helps me out, and i've
noticed a huge difference in my
personality. you have to tell him/her
EVERYTHING don't leave anything out. I
actually wrote a list of problems i had
and took it with me. that helped me out a
lot, cuz sometimes when you go to doctors
you are on the spot and sometimes you
forget things. hope this helps you out
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antigone
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Posted: 05-27-08 09:33am
You are describing mood swings and some
compulsive behaviors. These symptoms are
consistent with mood disorders. You may
want to see a psychiatrist. These symptoms
interfere with your life and should be
addressed by a doctor.
Obsessive/compulsive disorder is not about
cleanliness. It is about thoughts or
behaviors that are done repeatedly and
seem to be without control. You are unable
to stop thinking the same thought over and
over or must perform some action and seem
to be compelled to repeat the action. The
description of 2 people fighting in your
head suggests a mood disorder as well. A
psychiatrist can evaluate you and
recommend treatment. Writing out all the
moods and behaviors can be very helpful as
you do forget things when you are talking
with the doctor. I hope you will consider
seeing a psychiatrist. The confusion and
chaos you feel can be treated and you will
feel better.
