Miscarriage - I Ask Myself Why? Posted: 07-15-04 18:10pm
I just had a miscarriage, couple of days
ago. It was the worst nightmare I ever
experience in my whole life. Only a few
days before my doctor had told me that I
am pregnant. I was 7 weeks far. My
boyfriend and me were very happy about it
when we found out, but then only a few
days after, I started having cramps
combined with bleeding. I went to my gyno
for a check up and the ultrasound showed
everything was allright with the baby as
for now, but if the bleeding got any
heavier I should go immediately to the
hospital. That night bleeding started
getting massive, it wouldnt stop as well
as the pain. I hoped it would go away,
but also was prepared that it could be
something serious. I prayed that my baby
would survive. In the morning I checked
in to the hospital where they diagnosed a
miscarriage. No heartbeat - nothing. I
was under shock and burst out in tears.
They told me they would have to make a
d&c as for to remove the rest of the
bodyparts.
At first I refused, because, I couldnt
realize my baby was dead.
After a long talk with the doctor, I
agreed as it was the best for my health.
I am a mother of a 4-year old daughter, my
first pregnancy was normal, no
complications, nothing.
I still do not know how deal with it all,
and ask myself why? And what my fault
was.
Now I am scared I might have a next
miscarriage or dont even know if I might
get pregnant again.
