mood disorder or bipolar ? Posted: 06-17-08 01:35am
Ok so currently I am diagnosed as...Mood
Disorder NOS...which is not really a
diagnosis at all. My problem is...if I do
have bipolar....god I just don't know. I
don't really have mania...just realllllly
severe depression/suicidal tendencies, and
then I have almost hypomania. Like last
summer I was running around making lists
and getting all this stuff done, and
packing and getting ready for college and
I was sooo productive it was crazy. My
first semester of college I got almost
straight A's and then all of a sudden I
crashed. I basically didn't leave the
house for 3 months. I stopped going to
work, stopped doing anything. I was
suicidal. I tried 2 times...not bad enough
to have to go to the hospital though. Then
in March I started getting help. Since
then I've had two really unexplainable
episodes. Totally out of character and I
felt not there and out of control. I ended
up drinking a half a bottle of vodka (to
help shut up my thoughts) and then I
started taking pills and I ended up
slashing my wrist open and then calling my
friend that lives 5 states away. Totally
not me. I don't even drink! Then a lil
while ago my b/f was upset because
sometimes I just go catatonic and don't
talk. All of sudden I burst and was
slamming doors and almost broke one by
pushing against it. I even shoved him,
slapped him and scratched him, then I
collapsed into a blob on my bed for 2
hours crying uncontrollabling. I have no
clue what's wrong with me. I'm not a
violent person. Any opinions would be
greatly appreciated.
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Hi, blackcherry2002! Posted: 06-19-08 09:36am
Have you experienced at the same time high
energy and low mood, feeling agitation,
irritability, insomnia, appetite changes,
loss of contact with reality, and suicidal
thoughts?
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Posted: 06-19-08 09:59am
Bipolar disorder is a spectrum disorder,
meaning that it goes from one extreme to
the other - from mild to severe. Some
people have symptoms that don't fit neatly
into the categories of BPI and BPII so it
is given the designation of BP NOS. The
NOS means "not otherwise specified". This
is a diagnosis. All it is saying is that
you present with symptoms that overlap BPI
and BPII and may have some unique features
to your presentation with the condition.
Have you discussed the above episodes with
your doctor? Both incidents sound like
manic episodes. These would not fall in
the category of hypomania. They are more
severe than that. Sometimes when someone
is being treated for BP the medications
can cause some symptoms. This is true when
the depressive end of BP is treated with
antidepressants and the manic end is not
properly addressed or the medication to
treat mania is not effective. The
antidepressant can cause some pretty
severe manic episodes. Your doctor needs
to know about your episodes so your
medication can be reviewed. You may need a
dose adjustment or another medication.
There is no way to know until you see your
doctor.
I hope you will go back to your doctor and
report the above episodes. You can be
treated and it will help you feel better.
Living with BP is challenging enough with
medication. Give yourself every advantage
you can and get the necessary treatment.
If you are unsure of your doctor, get a
second opinion. I encourage you to find
some help so you can lead a productive
life.
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Posted: 06-20-08 00:27am
I told my therapist, but not the woman
that prescribes me stuff. I thought they
would range in the hypomania...I am not
really delusional...except really paranoid
that people are talking about me and
laughing and staring, oh and i have this
weird thing where i believe my b/f is
cheating on me (he's given me no reason to
suspect it) and it's not even a
low-self-esteem thing...like sometimes I
get this weird thought that he's not going
to work...he's going to meet some girl to
have sex with. I don't have insomnia. When
I'm depressed I sleep 10 hours a day.
Normally it's almost perfectly 8. But
lately I've been staying up later, getting
up at the same time and randomly waking up
in the middle of the night...like every
hour. but I'm not that abnormally tired.
Oh and I was really figidety today...and I
got a job on the spur of the moment...I
don't know I saw my therapist today and
she didn't say anything about it.
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antigone
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Posted: 06-20-08 01:37am
I hope you mention these incidents to your
psychiatrist. A psychiatrist is an MD and
can write your prescriptions.
Mania does not always present with
delusional material. That is only one way
some people present with mania.
One of the features of mania is impulsive
behavior - like spontaneously getting a
job. Paranoia is, also, a symptom of
mania.
If you are not getting feedback from your
therapist, find a new one. You need
support, advice, and a professional to
listen to you and offer some suggestions.
I hope you talk to your psychiatrist.
He/she needs to know about the episodes
you have had and about the paranoia and
impulsive behavior.
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blackcherry2002
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Posted: 06-20-08 02:25am
I don't know. i mentioned my sleep and the
other times too. About the sleep...she
said "oh yeah I know isn't that horrible
when that happens?" and then about the
other incidents she just kinda nodded and
said she would keep an "eye" on things as
far as diagnosis. Is it possible I just
don't recognize if I'm having delusions?
lol They ARE delusions. Oh and it's funny
cuz when I sat down today in therapy...she
said I looked really tired. In fact I feel
great and I was figdeting the whole time.
I don't know...
By the way along with all of this I have
anxiety issues. I have a phobia of cops
and I usually get panic attacks around
them as well as panic attacks when I drive
on the interstate. And one time I was so
paranoid...while embarrassingly being
extremely jealous and net-stalking my
boyfriend and had the worst one I've ever
had. Oh and when I was younger, I had an
entire summer where I would throw up
because I would make myself so nervous.
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Posted: 07-02-08 13:28pm
Youth with bipolar disorder are prone to
having mixed episodes (symptoms of both
depression and mania, very fast mood
swings between depression and mania many
times within a day)
This combination of high energy and low
mood makes for a particularly high risk of
suicide.
Bipolar disorder also shares many of the
signs and symptoms associated with other
psychiatric illnesses such as anxiety
disorders.
What kind of meds you are taking?
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Posted: 07-03-08 03:08am
Lamictal 100 mg once daily and
Prozac 40 mg once daily. but I have
recently just sorta stopped
I should prolly get back on...
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Posted: 07-03-08 23:36pm
Have you spoken to your psychiatrist yet?
Your psychiatrist will pick up on your
symptoms and may adjust you medications.
Why did you quit taking your prozac? Are
you having difficulty with the med? Let
your psychiatrist know if you are having
problems on this med. There are many other
options and your doctor could give you
another med. It is not a good idea to just
stop taking medications. It can cause you
to go into a wild swing with your moods
and you may become very unstable. I
encourage you to talk to your psychiatrist
and get back on your meds. You may find
that you feel better.
Not all psychologists are well informed
about the symptoms of bipolar disorder.
Her response to your sleep pattern makes
me question how much she knows about the
disorder. You need to have someone who is
very familiar with bipolar disorder to
help you. The therapist needs to be able
to pick up on subtle signs of instability
and direct you when this occurs. It may
require that she call your psychiatrist
and let her know you are unstable. Both
the psychologist and psychiatrist should
talk to each other and to you to keep you
on track and stable.
I hope you will talk to your psychiatrist.
You may need to have a med review and
adjustment. You should mention your
anxiety as well. This is a common comorbid
diagnosis with bipolar disorder.
Let us know how you are doing. We are here
if you need us!
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Calm your butt down Posted: 07-05-08 03:21am
Why does it matter what flavor of the
illness fits you or that you fit into too?
Sounds more like you are working yourself
up into a fit, which in turn is adding
more stress and anxiety to your life,
which is causing more issues to arise.
Settle your butt down. Stop analyzing
everything in your life and be totally
honest with your therapist and the
gal/psychiatrist that is writing the
scripts. Next…take the medications as
prescribed and not stop or adjust the meds
based on what you think or feel. Most
medications can take up to 6 weeks to
reach therapeutic levels and really start
working.
What most fail to realize is the treatment
is pretty much the same across the board;
it’s the amounts and concoctions that
very. Also understand that there is not a
pill for everything. Sometimes we have to
deal with what are real life stressors
that actually make us stronger and smarter
after going through them.
If the relationship with the boyfriend is
too much, you may want to take a breather
for awhile. Your sleep patterns are well
within normal ranges as most with the
illness usually function on 4 to 5 hours a
day sleep. Personally the best thing I can
suggest is to calm down and just enjoy
life instead of what you’re doing now
which is self-diagnoses.
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Posted: 07-07-08 10:31am
I'm not working myself up. I'm worried if
I don't know what I have now I won't be
able to treat it before it screws up my
life. My mom is currently thought to be
bipolar, but she only sees her general
doc. She's had high anxiety, can't sleep
without tranqualizers, has had many
addictions, unstable relationships, is
going bankrupt, has had a heart attack and
at age 47 she's now getting a difibulator.
So...and unfortunately my mother and I
have very similar personalities, etc.
I have no problem with my boyfriend. We
never fight. We've been together a year
and a half and have only ARGUED maybe 3 or
4 times. We're both usually pretty
level-headed and laid back people. My
moods just explode sometimes
uncontrollably. And we usually only argue
or fight when I'm in one of my moods.
I stopped taking my meds because : I felt
better(bad reason I know but I just had no
motivation to keep taking them, don't
ask), busy and forget, can't afford them.
Esp. the Lamictal. I have no clue how much
that is going to cost but I was just down
500 in my b an k. So it's either get meds
or pay the rent.
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Posted: 07-07-08 10:52am
I agree with all of the above. all Bipolar
disorders are defferently carried out by
differnt people. Especially the manic
state. I also would advice you to tell you
doctor every thing you have to us and let
he/she diagnose you with the proper
evaluation that you will need. Since BPD
in all of us can sometimes come off very
diifferntly then other sometimes it is
hard to determine and take sometime to
consider what medicataion you should be
on. I am bipolar and thank goodness I am
on the right meds, just playing around
with the dosage right noe. I see my doctor
next week and will explain how I am
feeling on the low does vs. the doese she
put me on in the bigging. I am having some
reactions to the larger does which she
need to know about. It is very important
not to hold anything back. The part you
hold back could be very importan part to
ge a proper picture.