My Father Passed Away Last Night :(

Hi girls, my Father passed away. Those of you who dont know... hes been fighting for over 5 years of serosis of the liver, active hep C and cancer. The last four days I've been with him at his side, 2 in the hospital and 2 at his house. I'm in complete shock and it hasnt hit me real hard yet. I'm thankful I got the time to tell him what I wanted to. I told him (even though he couldnt speak) everything I wanted to, from telling him I forgive him for anything hes done to upsset me & vise versa, to bringing up old classic family memories to tellling him I understand that hes leaving me and that I understand if he has to leave me from this world into a new world of eternity with our Lord and Savior. I'm making a tribute album of songs for him for his celebration of life get together. (since he diddnt want a funeral. he wants us to celebrate the good times, if that makes sense. so in his honor ima make the best of it. his g/f has angered me in this time of crisis because she did his willwhen he was all doped up on morphine and did it w/o including my brother and myself, w/o a notary either, so wasnt legal really. i know what my dad wanted cuz he told me 2 months ago (when he was normal, not on heavy doses of morphine) or so that he wanted us kids to have his house and to split his belongings. well she had him sign the papers w/o a legal person there to whitness and w/o us kids. she left us nothing but some navy metals, pictures, 1 tv that barely works and a couple of clocks. she told my bro he might get some tools of my dads. well im over the angry part about that, its just the principle im mad about now. i mean that wasnt his wishes at all, but if she wants to be greedy, then so be it. she can have it all, im not a material person, wasnt raised that way. i just dont understand how someone could be that way and say they loved and honored him. she had no respect for his wishes. so long as i get his medals and pics im good to go. im just happy that my dad isnt suffering anymore and that i got the chance to say my goodbyes. he is with the lord now and i WILL see him again one day. there is a lot of shady things this woman has done to me and my family toward the end of my dads days, very upsetting. ill post sometime when i might want to vent, or maybe not cuz it dosnt really matter anymore. i just wanted to update you all. been the roughest thing ive had to go thru and will continue to go thru. im still in shock but i know when it hits it will be really hard. thank god i have my 2 month old son to keep me going. my dad was 50 years old.