ive got a massive secret that im hiding
from everyone around me. im bulimic and
have been for bout 2 1/2 years now. it
started where i would only do it on the
weekend after i ate a massive takeaway and
ice cream and sweets with sis and frineds
and i would go back to my room and make
myself sick in plastic bags and hide under
my bed and then sneak out with it in the
mornign on my way to the gym but im now at
the point where its alot worse. i do it
everyday after nearly everythign i eat. i
tell myself im not gonna do it again and
to just eat healthy things and then i wont
need to do it which works sometimes but if
i get a tiny bit of stress or even if im
board i will just think what cna i eat and
i will raid my cupbaords for stuff like
cakes,chrisps,cereal,well anythign that
can come back up easily.i feel disgusted
in myself and keep thining of the damage i
must be doing to myself as its just got
out of control.my partner knows i used to
do it but thinks its all stopped since
having my baby but infact its got worse. i
didnt do it much wilst pregant but i no
thats still terrible that i even done it
the once but since trying to loose the
baby weight ive lost control of it.
my partner is getting suspisious coz we
both trying to loose weight and im loosing
it so quickly and he keeps saying your not
making your self sick are you? and i just
make up that course not how could you say
that ablah blah rubbish, but im petrified
of telling him. i just dont dont know what
to do. im so scared of loosing control of
my eating habbits and turning back into
what i was 5 years ago...a 20st heffa. i
lost a wopping 11 stone in bout 8 months
from extreme excersize and basically
eating nothing(500 cal a day but then
would work all of that off and more with
excersize) but that then turned into
bulimia once i had reached my ideal weight
and was totaly confused as to how to stay
at the weight as it seemed if i ate
normaly i would just put weight on.ibling
now sorry.
im babbling now but is anyone else in the
same situation as
me??????????????????????????????????
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heyya Posted: 08-07-08 14:12pm
hii,
I know and completely understand what you
re going through, I'm anorexic and last
year my friends found out when i collapsed
and was rushed into hospital and my head
of year spoke to them. But since I have
lied about it and my weight. I wear baggy
clothes and always have a reason not to
eat.
I felt like I could never tell any of them
again because I'm so ashamed about it. But
my best friend asked me and I stumbled on
my words and she guessed and then I told
her everything about why I do it and why I
an't stop and how I feel and why I never
said anything and I finally felt like
some1 had taken sum weight off my
shoulders. She has since been a great
support.
I think you need to tell your partener.
Explain everything because he has a right
to know. Especially if he is already
getting suspicious. IT is better to tell
than let him guess and never be sure of
wht to say around you because he won't
know the truth.
Maintaining a healthy weight isnt easy but
you need a balanced diet and a simple
exercise routine. This will burn off any
excess fat but will provide the essential
vitamins and proteins your body requires.
