Joined: 21 Sep 2008 Posts: 12 Location: Sydney, Australia
NEW TO CUTTING Posted: 09-25-08 18:19pm
Back story...After trying everything to
give up smoking from patches and gum to
hypnotheropy I went to the new wonder drug
Champix. Within 2 weeks I started to
notice changes within in my moods. I
managed to keep control of it as I figured
it was a small price to pay to beat the
cigs. 3 months down the track I am
suffering depression and anxiety.
3 weeks ago I found myself sitting alone
in a park with a peice of glass cutting at
my arm. I cut myself 40 - 50 times....yes
thats right!!!!
I find myself now thinking about cutting.
The other night I was washing the dishes
and I was just looking down at a
knife...then out of no where I stabbed my
arm!!! not just a little prick as I hit
the bone!!!
What is going in????? How do I get
enjoyment out of this???? I cant talk to
anyone as I feel like a damn freak!!!! I
am not a teenager...i am a parent with 2
children to look after....why would I do
this to myself???
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illustriously fickle
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Feb 2008 Posts: 293
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Posted: 09-26-08 06:17am
That seems serious! Is there a mental
health clinic near you? You might need
some help detoxing from that drug, which
can cause psychotic episodes.
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Phocks
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Sep 2008 Posts: 12 Location: Sydney, Australia
Posted: 09-29-08 18:16pm
I have an appointment with a psychologist
this thursday.
But I am really scared to tell them what
is going on with me.
Along with the cutting I am having very
disturbing and violent dreams. Then
fantasising about the dreams afterwards.
I dont know what is going on!!!!
I am not a violent person but I fear I
have become one!!!
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illustriously fickle
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Feb 2008 Posts: 293
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Posted: 09-30-08 05:38am
Good news! I'd suggest that you disclose
all of your concerns. Honesty is always
the best policy in my opinion, especially
when you are dealing with the psyche.
Please let us know what the psychologist
recommends!
