Hello, I'm posting here because I believe
I have a problem with my penis, and
honestly I'm a bit scared (I'm 20 years
old). Until recently, I've never noticed
that I have very little sensitivity in the
shaft of my penis. I can feel it if I
pinch the skin fairly gently with my
fingernails, but it's a very dull
sensation with little sense of immediacy.
This is a problem because I'm unable to
ejaculate/orgasm during intercourse with
my girlfriend. She's the only girl I've
ever slept with, so in my mind I'd always
figured that because sex is not something
that I have varied experiences with, I
could just sort of put the issue in the
back of my mind, assuming that I suffered
from retarded ejaculation due to becoming
too used to the regular hand grip during
masturbation.
However, during sex I've been paying a lot
more attention to the sensation so that I
can get to the bottom of the problem. I've
noticed that I have what I believe to be
"normal" levels of sensitivity in the
glans, where I have pleasurable sensations
during sex. However, it is hard to be
certain that even these sensation levels
are normal, as I have unfortunately only
ever been the possessor of one penis.
During sex I have zero feeling in my
shaft, except for feelings of warmth.
During oral this is also the case. I have
only ever been able to ejaculate from
manual or a combination of simultaneous
oral and manual stimulation. This is
pretty caca because it means that sex
isn't very physically enjoyable, although
I get a lot emotionally from it, and still
want to do it, which leads me to believe
that I have normalish libido levels and do
not have any psychological issues about
sex.
I now therefore think that I do not suffer
from retarded ejaculation, as I now
attribute my inability to ejaculate (not
even get close) from intercourse and
straight oral to the near numbness of my
shaft. I did not really notice it until it
became an issue, and so believed it to be
normal. However, in light of these new
revelations, I am led to the conclusion
that I have a broken dick.
My girlfriend currently lives in a
different country, so before I last saw
her I tried banking for about two and a
half weeks, but even this did not help. It
simply rendered me as a horny and
irritable ejaculate-balloon.
This is a real problem for me. It means
that I can sex indefinitely, but because I
received little physical sensation, as I
find the the glans is not massively
stimulated during intercourse, I often get
bored after about an hour. It also means
that quickies are a totally phatic affair.
I haven't spoken to my girlfriend about
this, as I'm far too embarrassed, but I
sense that she's becoming frustrated by
the fact that I never finish during sex,
and it's maybe making her feel
self-conscious, despite me being fairly
confident that it's a problem with me.
I don't know if the following factors can
have anything to do with what I have
decided to name Broken Dick Syndrome
(BDS), but I'll mention them in case they
do.
I've had a bad back since I was about 11
or 12 (basically when puberty began). It
cracks very loudly if I twist in the
correct way, which relieves the ache for a
while. I have bad feet, which may be the
cause of my bad back, and I am oddly
flexible in strange ways. For example, I
can get my leg behind my head with not a
great deal of effort; if I sit with my
feet together, in front of my groin area
and with knees bent outwards to my sides,
I can push my knees to the floor with no
effort whatsoever (I know this because
it's a stretch I do at my martial arts
class, a depth of stretch that not even
the teacher can get close to, even though
I'm a white belt.) A friend of mine who
studies physiotherapy recently told me
that my hips are freakishly flexible,
despite getting bad cramps in them. I'm
also adamant that I could give myself oral
sex, but it's not something I could ever
try because every time I've considered
proving it I could not shake the image of
my dad looking very disapprovingly at me
out of my head. Perhaps my penis nerves
are caught up in the curious matrix of
spine- and hip-freakery.
I also remember once during my prime
masturbatory years (14, 15 or so) I
sustained some sort of penis injury
through what I will describe as enjoying
myself with excessive frequency. I
remember a very sharp, painful sensation
inside my penis. I can imagine it now, but
still could not explain exactly what it
was. I tried knocking one out the next day
to see if it fixed, but it hadn't. I
continued to masturbate daily anyway,
which was probably stupid. I think this
has happened to me more than once.
It also happened once during sex. Recently
when I was with my girlfriend, she was on
top and was getting carried away, and she
obviously either hates me or
misinterpreted my whinces of pain for
"whinces" of pleasure. It was the exact
same pain.
I'm sorry for this very long post, but
like I mentioned I'm a bit scared, and
wanted to offer all of the information I
could. If anyone knows what this is or
what I should do then I would be very,
very very grateful. Please help me combat
BDS! Thank you for your time.
