Depression Forum - Physical appearance and mental pain

I'll get right to the point:

I'm 17, Senior in High School, and I've never had a girlfriend, and believe me I can be charismatic and that doesn't help at all. I've always ALWAYS been told I was ugly, not once has anyone every complimented my appearance except my mother who I think just feels bad for me. I've had elderly people tell me I was ugly, when I was like 10, they would just say, "Boy you're ugly." or something along that line. I've pretty much gotten used to it, because well.. I can't look at myself either. My mom was so proud of my pictures for senior class but I can't stand them hanging up, I hate to see them and I don't like mirrors. My dad doesn't say anything but like everyone else I'm sure he thinks I'm not good looking either. At this point in time people have gotten used to the fact that I don't get upset or respond negatively to being called ugly and they just randomly say it now as a response to anything I do, "Man you're hideous" or something like that. I just don't see what good I can do in the social world. I know the human brain has hardwired aesthetics and I adore the anatomy of the brain.. so I can't complain about how it works but I just dislike the cards I was dealt. I have a gigantic head, my mother even said that, and to go along with it I have a bonechilling face that makes the most resolute people flinch in disgust. I could ramble about a lifetime of being insulted with fact, but I'd take forever. I also am beginning to feel like I'm developing serious health problems, and when I tell my mother -- who is a nurse -- she just ignores it. I think she wants me to die so I don't have to deal with all this crap anymore. I know I'm practically an adult now and I shouldn't be complaining but I just feel like I was given the crappiest body in the world. I have random head pains in the same spot of my head where I thought was just because I hit it in a car wreck a while back.. that might still be it I guess.

Is it normal for your face and head to get tingly when you've been working physically for a long period of time? I got worried over that as well because I'm a hypochondriac but I just wanted other opinions. I've come to the conclusion though that if I do have something life-threatening it's all well and good.. if it kills me then well I can be in the ground where no one has to look at me anymore.

After a LIFE-TIME of being told this by EVERYONE, I've come to this..

Fact: I am ugly, period. There is no human being who can see me as anything else except my mother, God bless her, who insists that I am beautiful.