Hi I am taygo.
I been stressed more than I ever been in
my life, the last 4 or more years. This
past year been really hard. I only had one
"real" job last year, I started college in
dec, and I am living at a place where I am
not to happy.
I been out of a job since June, but I am
going to college. I have been looking for
a job and interviewing even since june.
College really don't stress me out as much
as having no job. As for where I am
living, I live with my bf. He could be the
love of my life
but
we are living with his brother and sister
in-law right now. I can't really talk to
him about it since it makes drama. We
never fought until we came here. He knows
I don't like it here, but we have no where
else to go. Reason I don't like it here
is, his brother trys and tells him I am
not right for him in many ways. I am not
worried about my bf believing him, I just
can't believe what he does. I can't talk
to his brother at all without him taking
James aside to tell him how messed up I am
or I upset him.
I been dating him for about 2 years this
april. About a month ago, he wrote a email
to my bf*the brother wrote it FROM WORK*
saying how I am not a strong woman since I
don't have a job, or a car. There was
other stuff too. So I dislike being around
them more and more. It is hard since his
wife, is kinda...lazy, and yells at him
all day and night, but I let my bf be him
and love him even the bad....I am a weak
woman???He is one of those guys that think
they are helping but they are hurting.
I feel sick all*overly stressed* the time
and I am ice cold. The house is at 69*I
live in ut* and since the sun is around,
the basement never gets heat, I freeze. So
much so I can't move my fingers*well* some
days.
I looked up overly cold hands and feet on
Google and Raynard's disease popped up. I
am not sure I have it, but it sounds like
I do. I was wondering, if anyone else has
this and how can I really tell I have it?
It been freaking my bf out about how I am
so ice cold and can barely move my hands
unless I cover up for hours.
Sorry, I had to vent. Also..it is kinda
hard for me to go to a doctor...so
anything you guys say would help me
greatly:) <3
