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recovery from adderall addiction Posted: 03-13-08 17:07pm


well i think i got the caca end off the stick. hi, my name is chris ford, i have been on some form of adderall everyday of my life since i was in 3rd grade for ADD. i m now TWENTY ONE YEARS OLD. so after 11 or 12 years, i have decided enough is enough. for years i thought i was a machine, a god, i would stay awake for days without sleep or food, just cigarettes and redbulls, (for years i did this) i am an artist. so all i would do is paint and draw all night and go to work during the day and do drugs and drink with friends in the evening, next day, same thing. i was unstoppable, in the younger years, indestructible. it came to a resent point where i needed to blow lines of adderal the minute i woke up every day or all hell would break loose,and FORGET about not having ne when i prescription ran out, i was ready, stocked, under control. what a dummy i was. adderall ran my life, alot of my art work became focused on depression and how adderall was the power behind my everyday, "adderall is the batteries of my life". even as im writing this, i know what the constant ringing in my ear is saying " this would be so much easier if u had some adderall" but i do not. i have stopped taking it " cold turkey" ha, i read somewhere else on this thing that thats not a good idea. but nothing is impossible. i m now a tattoo artist, the worst thing about not being on this drug any more is zero motivation, not how my bones and body hurts for hours every morning, how tired i m ALWAYS, the increased depression, and dought of self worth, i feel like all the motivation to do things came from those pills. i now sit down with some paper, and nothing, i want to make art like i used to, thats the hardest thing about being off the drugs, i just want to create caca, but now, im blank. i have found smoking weed helps with this problem alittle. but nothing like adderall used to.. oh man, the things id accomplish. i could do nething, and now, everything seems so limited, i hope this way of thinking gets done with soon. neone know ne other ways to help or ease these problems? im sorry if this post seems like it went nowhere, i have more to say. but i must stop writing, lack of focus and restlessness is overwhelming. hit me back friends.

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Posted: 03-24-08 23:32pm


Your going to go through withdrawl in many different ways. One is how it affects you lifestyle. Remember, you were at a high and full of energy and accomplishment. Now, you have to do all of this in a world of reality where there is stress and more stress. There is no easy way out. Adderal is soooo addicting it is horrid. And yes, the shame of it is it will have an impact on your creativity. But, if you had this same creativity before starting the drug, after withdrawl (and I mean stop completely and not a just take a few) you should (with will power) be able to get that sense of self confidence you need and do the same wonderful work you aare use to doing but without the drug. From what I have read in you post. I must admit, it might be in your best interest to get to an inhous rehab treatment program. I'll tell ya, it really help going through this a lillte less torture for you. Let someone that know what to do help you get through it. I wish you the best, Carrie

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I'm in the Same Boat Posted: 03-29-08 01:31am


I just got off of adderall after 2 years. It was really helpful when I was in high school. I was taking 30 mg once a day and getting straight A's. When I went to college, unfortuantly I was unable to control myself and got completly addicted to this disgusting drug. I was taking 150 mg, which may not seem like "anything" to some poeple, but it was more then enough for me. I was going three days without sleeping or eating. I would just surf the web all day looking at sites like "how to do well in school" and yada yada but in reality I was so out of strung out on adderall I would just skip school and sit there on the computer. I stopped socializing, broke up with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years, and become a shell of myself. I stopped taking it for a week and then relapsed (?) and took 200 mg in 2 days. Then I stopped taking it for another week and RETOOK IT THIS WEEKEND. I am honestly so disappointed in myself. I am with you on this. I'll support you if you support me! This "medicine" is so addicting it's scary.

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I'm in the Same Boat Posted: 03-29-08 01:32am


I just got off of adderall after 2 years. It was really helpful when I was in high school. I was taking 30 mg once a day and getting straight A's. When I went to college, unfortuantly I was unable to control myself and got completly addicted to this disgusting drug. I was taking 150 mg, which may not seem like "anything" to some poeple, but it was more then enough for me. I was going three days without sleeping or eating. I would just surf the web all day looking at sites like "how to do well in school" and yada yada but in reality I was so out of strung out on adderall I would just skip school and sit there on the computer. I stopped socializing, broke up with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years, and become a shell of myself. I stopped taking it for a week and then relapsed (?) and took 200 mg in 2 days. Then I stopped taking it for another week and RETOOK IT THIS WEEKEND. I am honestly so disappointed in myself. I am with you on this. I'll support you if you support me! This "medicine" is so addicting it's scary.

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adderall abuse Posted: 04-25-08 21:24pm


hi. i am new to this site. i was prescribed ritalin when i was in elementary school, around 3rd grade [btw, i think it's ridic that CHILDREN, TODDLERS, are now being diagnosed with ADHD, every freaking kid is hyper active, and gets distracted VERY easily] anyways, the ritalin gave me asthma attacks so i was taken off of it. i was then prescribed adderall--still in elementary school...i hated taking ANY kind of medicine so i would tell my mom i took it and really wouldn't, or she'd have to force me to take it, and eventually she got tired of making me take it and made the choice up to me; which i didn't take it. i am now, 19, going to be 20 in a week. i graduated high school with alot of emotional issues, and just had alot of baggage and eventually lost all my friends, became FAT, and etc. [btw, i was in a VERY unhealthy relationship with my boyfriend @ the time, which prolonged for 4 years] i went to a university for my freshman year, basically failed out, or rather, couldn't go back to that school b/c of 3 other kind of drug citations from my school police...but i guess that's a different story. i started to realize that adderall was making me lose weight RAPID and i was getting SO much attention from guys [which was neeeeded b/c of my breakup with my boyfriend of 4 years]...so i kept taking it....and taking it and taking it. eventually i got all the way up to taking like 180 mg a day, some days more if i felt i was fat or needed it. alot of kids abuse adderall to help them in school, and to focus [even if they aren't diagnosed w/ adhd], i didn't take it to focus or do better in school, in fact i did worse, alot worse, i didn't go to class, it was rare very rare if i did, i snorted addy's in the bathroom of my dorm, in my dorm room, in the bathroom of the freaking computer labs...i lost A TON of weight, which was my goal right? too bad it took over my life. i started dealing it to my friends, and started to run low on MY own supply, so i stole my brother's HUGE bottle of adderall xr [wasn't taking it anymore] which did the same thing for me. my parents got suspicious about my RAPID talking, and weight loss, etc. i admitted to my mom that i was taking alot more than i should have, i put it very very non chalonty; like it was no big deal that i was taking that much. she got very worried, and said i NEEDED to stop right away or else i could die, b/c my heartbeat would become too fast and stop....unfortunatly she didn't know how addicted i was. once she found out though, she immediatly took my script away and was NOT giving in. they kicked me out of their house [when summer hit and college was over] they let me stay in one of their buildings that they own for the summer. during that time i was supposed to get my sh*t together...again, unfortunately that did not happen. i was doing other drugs, to maintain my weight so my weight was good, losing even more weight...i met an amazing guy that summer, and am still with him, it's been 8 months...if u've ever heard of the saying that 'love makes you fat' well that well applys for me...i got FAT, alot fatter, and i still am...i earned enough trust from my mom to get my prescription back about 4 months ago. i promised her i wasn't going to abuse it..which i haven't, until about a week ago. in fact, i didn't even really have A DESIRE to take the drug, bc i KNEW that i had an addiction earlier and was afraid that would return, [being addicted to anything isn't a good feeling and once u've been 'free' from something, u really never want to have to go back to those feelings] well, it's only been a week, but i love the feeling, and i now remember why i was addicted and how easily it is TO GET addicted...i can already tell i've lost some weight and i've had SOO much energy than before, i'm going to the gym and being able to actually work out, and im never hungry b/c i take so much of it...so no calories to be absorbed...anyways, i am now left with feelings of depression, kind of severe depression, at least when im coming down from the 'high' of taking such a high dosage....really severe actually, i used to be a cutter, and stopped for a longgg time, and i actually cut myself 2 nights ago..not bad, i never actually want to kill myself when i cut it's just to release anger that i can't seem to find any other way of getting rid of....i live with my boyfriend and he said that he hates how i act when im coming down from adderall..it's caused multiple fights already and it's only been a week. i want to lose weight FOR HIM though...i dont blame my weight gain on him, it was my fault..but yeah...i am an easily jealous person...and now that i've gained weight, u can def tell my eyes are getting greener and greener every day...even though he doesn't have wandering eyes or nething like that...i guess it's just a personal issue...i have ranted for a long time...and i guess am done...if anyone wants to comment...please do i guess...i am kind of a sensitive person so don't be cruel...i am not asking for advice, i guess i am just looking for anyone that can relate...thanks. [if you couldn't already tell, i'm 'high' on adderall right now...so that's probably why i wrote this much]