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Scratching has become an addiction Posted: 08-04-08 00:42am
Hello, everyone.
I am nervous about writing this, but I
guess I have nothing to fear. I know that
my case is not serious, but I am still
worried about my actions and the future. I
am 21 and have only been inflicting harm
upon myself for about 1 1/2 years.
However, I have always liked pain. As a
child, sometimes I would bite my hand for
fun or stick pins under my skin once in a
while. More recently, I have been picking
at hair on my face or using a tweezers to
pull out hair on my stomach or face. I
just realized that it is actually a
painful action. A couple of years ago, I
would sometimes slap my arms or use a
scissors to scrape my arms (doing no
damage). Then later, I did actually cut my
ankles badly three days in a row, but I
was able to stop. I still continued to
sometimes do minor harm. Then several
months later, I cut a couple of more
times. I was able to stop that again, but
I still am hurting myself now. I started
scratching my arm and sometimes, biting or
hitting/slapping it. Currently, I use keys
to scratch my arm, but I try not to do it
badly enough to bleed. There is my
history. Originally when I started, it was
to feel something or to release tension
from anxieties or anger, but now that is
not the case. I feel like I am addicted.
All I want to do is scratch myself. I love
seeing the marks on my arm (I just scratch
my left arm for some reason). I have begun
to not only do it every day, but I do it
whenever I have the chance. I am really
scared. I know that I am not in any real
danger right now, but I know that this is
not good, and I know that I shouldn't be
doing it. I had gone through some hard
times during the last several years, but
now I am doing fine psychologically and am
very happy. I really am doing well.
However, I am just so used to the feeling
and love it so much, that I can't let it
go, even if I don't really need it. I am
working on stopping. I'm sorry this is so
long, but I thought maybe someone could
help me or at least tell me something
about this feeling of needing to do it
without any real motive. I do have a
couple of confidants, and I will get
connected with a counselor as soon as I
can. Thank you all very much. I wish you
all well. God bless you.
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PestimisticAngel
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Posted: 08-29-08 18:03pm
I think yea you should speak with a
consuler but most of all just try to do
other things with your time, when you have
the urge or find yourself grabing the keys
well start head out the door and go
driving to the grocery to shop, visit a
friend and spend the night and TELL THEM
how your feeling and what you were about
to do ask for there support MAKE SURE that
they are supportive may be some of the
confidants that you were talking about
earlier
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