self cutting started again Posted: 10-11-08 01:37am
I've been cutting for 6 months now. The
first time I'm not really sure what
happened. I just got this really full
feeling. Like I might burst. And I cut. It
wasn't that bad at all the first couple of
times. I'd always get this overwhelming
feeling. But the cuts were shallow. Then
it got more intense. My then boyfriend
made me crazy. Crazy sad. And I couldn't
stop cutting. But then this one time I
just cut because I wanted to. Slash,
slash, slash across my thigh. The worst
was when we broke up. I slashed up both
arms really bad. But then I stopped for
about a month. Then last night I was about
to go to sleep and I just got up and cut
again. Then tonight, nothing was really
going on, but I really cut my arm again.
And then my thigh. Then I took a safety
pin and I carved the word b*tch into my
leg. It hurt a lot but I couldn't stop. I
don't know how to stop. I'm not even sure
if I can. What's wrong with me?
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Posted: 10-12-08 15:31pm
Hi shattered. You're not alone.
Hundereds of thousands of people cut
themselves in order to provoke a physical
reaction that can help take away emotional
pain. Do you want to find help? If you
give me the name of your city, I can see
what treatment centers are near you.
