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Self harm getting worse. Posted: 03-17-08 11:41am
Hi,
in my old post i wrote that i was getting
deeper.
yesterday i cut too deep and there was
nore blood than usual but i can't stop
myself. The more i try to stop the more I
will.
i feel so alone and don't have many people
to talk to.
I find it a comfort....like when people
comd=fort eat i comfort cut.
Because I dont have many friends, its
something which is always with me and i
know it won't leave me unexpectedly (may
sound weird but havin lost two loved ones
maybe not)
If i carry on getting deeper i might get
seriously hurt and thats not why i do it.
i so honestly want to stop, or atleast
find a way to stop myself cutting deeper.
thanks .x.
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PenguinsRus
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Posted: 03-18-08 10:59am
The way you feel is not weird. It is
exactly how I used to feel when I cut. I
knew I could control when I cut, how deep
I cut, and I loved how I would feel
comforted. One day I cut too deep, and
fortunately around the same time I got a
loving, supportive boyfriend who began to
help me through it (we are still together
to this day!).
Cutting may be a comfort, but it is not
healthy. I know you said you do not have
many friends, but some friends is better
than none at all. I know it is scary to
think about them leaving, but try to lean
on them. Friends are here to love and
support you.
We at the forum are all here for you too.
Wanting to stop is the first step towards
doing it. You are doing great by even
feeling the urge to stop. Can you talk to
a counselor or a trusted adult about what
is going on?
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NoMoreTears
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Joined: 15 Mar 2008 Posts: 26 Location: Poole, South West England
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hii Posted: 03-18-08 11:49am
I dould talk to someone but i dont know
who. i cant talk to my parents...there is
a distance between us, but maybe someone
at school like my pe teacher. The onlii
thing is will they have to let my parents
know?