Severe anxiety and depression Posted: 09-18-08 08:04am
For the last year or so, I have noticed
that I needed to change some things in my
life in order to be happy. I noticed I was
a bit more anxious and unhappy overall.
But a few months ago, my best friend of 9
years committed suicide and I haven't been
able to even fathom changing anything or
putting effort into anything. I've never
been this anxious/depressed before in my
life. (And I've seen psychiatrists before
and even been hospitalized before.)
The anxiety is especially bad at night. I
think during the day what works me up kind
of stays hidden, or it's easier to ignore
it because there is so much going on, but
for some reason at night I just feel so
alone and it literally suffocates me all
at once. I can't sleep, so I pace around,
feel very depressed, can't imagine living
past this, etc, etc. I also get extreme
nausea for which I am taking another
medication otherwise I would never eat.
Just horrible feelings.
It's strange because during the day, when
i'm not that anxious or depressed,
sometimes I'm ok to the point I can't even
fathom being depressed or not living, etc.
But when I get in the moods and the
anxiety comes, it's the complete opposite.
How can this happen?
My doctor prescribed me Lorazepan and i
think it has helped keep me more calm or
almost sedated because I don't feel like
i'm on the verge of a nervous break down
every night. I'm seeing a psych in a
month.
I'm so afraid of what is happening to me
and how I just can't snap out of it. I've
never felt this way before. I'm afraid of
this lasting another 6 months, a year,
what if it never stops? I dread the
future, sometimes I look at older people
and I don't understand how they've managed
to live so long. My anxiety is disabling
that I barely go to college now, and I
can't imagine working. I can barely go buy
groceries without wanting to sit in the
car parked in front of the store and never
go in.
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Angela3
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
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You're doing the right thing by asking questions here Posted: 09-21-08 03:57am
I went through some very difficult times
due to a major surgery that left me
deficient of hormones need for everyday
life and so I ended up with adrenal
fatigue and low thyroid as a result. The
sleepless nights one after the other
caused more damage and I was on Elavil, to
help but thank God, I'm off all the
horrible medications.
Right now, I'm on all natural remedies and
try to go swimming or walking everyday and
this becomes the highlight of my day as it
builds my breathing capacity and makes me
feel good about myself. Before starting
this, I was so fatigued and couldn't even
think of doing any exercise but since
starting two months ago, I'm actually
reversing the depression and anxiety and
my family members are amazed as they
couldn't imagine what could be wrong with
me and now they are happy that I am slowly
returning to my old self.
I try to eat nutritious small meals all
day, and cut back on dairy and white carbs
and all sugar and I am very diligent about
taking my vitamins, especially Vitamin D,
Vitamin B and Vitamin C and Calcium at
night.
