I'm 19 years old and I have quite a few
problems relating to delayed puberty. I
first started noticing I wasn't quite
keeping up with the rate of development of
other guys my age at around 14. At first,
it seemed like everything was just going
slower than usual, I had no chest hair,
but arm and pubic hair was already
starting to develop, acne was a minor
problem, but it hadn't quite progressed to
voice deepening, bone growth, and
testicular development. At around 15, all
development pretty much stopped, my acne
disappeared and I started growing breasts.
While they weren't exceptionally large,
they were still developed enough to stop
me from wearing thin T-shirts, and
necessitated covering my chest with an
over-shirt or jacket. I kept this to
myself for years, quietly hoping that the
situation would resolve itself in time. At
around 17 it became readily apparent that
this was not the case. I still had a near
complete lack of facial hair, with only a
light fuzz of pale hair around my upper
lip. There was still no chest hair, and my
voice had stayed the same since it was 15.
Last year I sought treatment and about 6
months ago I began taking testosterone
injections. The problem now is that my
breasts haven't seemed to shrink in size,
and my penis size has stayed the exact
same, it's only 2 1/2 inches when erect at
most. On the plus side (I guess) is that
ejaculate started being produced regularly
around 2 months ago (it would vary from
time to time previously, depending on how
recently my last injection was taken). The
glands in my breasts are large, rubbery,
and not sensitive to touch, I can actually
pinch the tissue with my fingers and move
them around freely, like a rubbery
mandarin orange. I'm worried that this may
require surgery, and I'm not sure I could
cope with the embarrassment. Alongside
that, I haven't had sex yet as I'm afraid
of being rejected due to my abnormally
small size, and have consequently pushed
away any attempts at intimacy, going so
far as to deliberately act repulsive in
front of women so as not to give reason
for any sexual attraction. Delayed
puberty has turned my social life into a
train wreck, and I'm afraid of going out
into public without being mocked over my
breasts and lack of facial hair. I can't
even go to bars as it's embarrassing to
have to show my I.D. and stand there while
they stare repeatedly at my face, and the
face on my license, as if I stole someone
else's I.D. Does anyone know if I'm just
not waiting long enough? I was informed
that the changes would take a few years,
but I had expected more development than
what I'm currently seeing. I just need
some reassurance here, as a lot of
emotional problems have stemmed from this.
I feel like I'm trapped in time, and these
injections won't help.
