Teen Psychotic Depression Posted: 03-19-08 23:34pm
Lately I have been having some really
strange thoughts about totally bizarre
things. I have been having some really
sick hallucinations, where I'm doing awful
things to people, but am enjoying it. For
instance, the other day I saw myself hold
a knife on someones neck. It didn't feel
bad, it felt good and natural. When I cut
their throat it felt like some form of
relief had passed over my body. These
hallucinations are now becoming apart of
my everyday life.
I was starting tto wonder what was wrong
with me and I came accross some internet
sites which discussed psychotic
depression. From reading lots of the
information , I discovered to my horror,
that I have all of the symptoms of it, and
now I am unsure what to do.
Sometimes I consider leaving the world,
and other times I consider letting go to
the sick fantasies that seem to constantly
in my mind. I feel like if I don'y kill
myself I am just going to hurt someone
really badly. The hallucinations have also
given me a blood fetish, so I am now
enjoying them, however somewhere I know
that I shouldn't be.
Please, if there is anyone out there who
remotely understands what it is that I am
going through, then please let me know.
Perhaps the worst thing about it all is
that I am only 16, and feel like no one
will take me seriously if I tell them. I
cant tell my parents or my friends, and I
don't think I can tell a doctor. What
should I do? I feel like if I don't get
help I will do something awful. Yet at the
same time I want to do these awful things
so satisfy my blood fetish.
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Well IWKU Posted: 03-19-08 23:50pm
This is deffinatly a topic that Georgia59
needs to review. Only thing I can tell you
is that it does no good to look up on the
net to find out what is wrong with you.
Been there done that and was sure I had
MS. I do not. I have hardening of the
arteries in my brain. Any time you look up
something, I willing to bet you will come
up with at least half of the symtoms. Let
a doctor diagnose your symtom and do it
the right way. You can not fool around
with you mind. You have to let a
proffessional know what is going on. This
is nothing to push to the side of the
road.
There are anti-phsycotic medications out
there that might be able to help you. Only
thing I am afraid of is that one day (if
not taken care of now) these thoughts may
become a reality. And I am sure that is
something you do not want to happen.
