I started to SI nearly 3 years ago, while
I was dealing with difficult relationships
with men. Relationships was always an
issue, especially since they've always
been self-destructing.
I'm now involved with this man since a
little more than 2 years, and although I
SI a few times during our relationship, it
went away since what we have together is
nearly perfect...
BUT... he left for China a few days ago.
I'm already missing him like crazy and
unsure I will be able to deal without him.
I know it sounds "borderline", but I feel
like I lost control over our relationship
the day he left. I'm scared he won't come
back, I'm scared he'll meet another woman,
cheat on me... and just will not care
anymore. This is dragging me down to the
point where I've almost cutted last night.
I went to my mother's place instead, but I
won't always be able to do it.
He's only coming back mid-August. I am
unsure I will be able to deal!! I'm a busy
woman, but nights are especially rough
since I am used to living and sleeping
with him.
I've though about leaving my jobs, ask for
a loan and go meet him in China. But that
wouldn't be the good thing to do, I have
bills to pay and two jobs that I truly
love...
I feel like I am lost and the only way to
gain control over my emotions is to SI...
And I thought it all went away...
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ArmyWife521
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Joined: 17 Apr 2008 Posts: 35 Location: Buford, GA USA
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