I am 19 years old, soon to be a junior in
college. I broke up with my boyfriend of 2
years a few months ago. A few weeks later
I started partying again. I had been
drinking and hooked up with one of my guy
friends and needless to say we weren't in
the best state of mind to be having sex.
That was a little over a month ago. I've
missed my period, been tired, and just
overall I feel different (pretty much all
the early symptoms are there). I've been
wanting to take a test and I know I
should, but I just have this fear that
taking it makes it become REAL, ya know?
The hardest part for me to deal with is
that I'm not dating anyone so it makes me
feel like people are going to judge me
even harsher than if I had been in a
steady relationship. The other thing is
that if I am pregnant, I will be having a
mixed child (I'm white and he's black). I
have no problem with that personally, but
I am unsure of how my parents will feel
about it. I am 'allowed' to date any race,
but who knows what they will think about
having a child. Sorry this is so long, but
I haven't talked to anyone yet so it feels
good to get this all out! Thanks!!
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rosejackson
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Posted: 07-20-07 13:11pm
well im afraid that you're better off
taking the test and knowing for sure and
if its positive, now is the time to start
thinking about what decisions to make.
good luck
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nasccm54
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Joined: 20 Jul 2007 Posts: 3 Location: ,
Posted: 07-20-07 13:35pm
rosejackson
wrote:
well im afraid that you're
better off taking the test and knowing for
sure and if its positive, now is the time
to start thinking about what decisions to
make. good
luck
You're definitely right, I know I need to
take a test... I guess I just don't want
to do it alone and since I haven't told
anyone I pretty much have to. I just don't
want to be by myself when I find out the
results... I know, I'm being stupid! haha
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rosejackson
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Joined: 23 Dec 2005 Posts: 4360 Location: hertfordshire, england
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Posted: 07-20-07 13:50pm
no your not being stupid at all. just
remember you are not alone no matter what
you decide to do. we are always here to
give you advice if you need it. or you
could go to the doctors and they can give
you advice too. id try talking to your
parents. im sure theyd be supportive. try
not to stress too much and please take a
test. you could be worrying over nothing x
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nasccm54
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Joined: 20 Jul 2007 Posts: 3 Location: ,
Posted: 07-20-07 17:32pm
So I bought a test and it's positive. I
took the other one in the pack right away
because I was in shock I suppose...
positive again. Now what? haha I still
feel like I can't confide in anyone until
I make a decision (adoption or keeping it,
not abortion) because I don't want anyone
to pressure me into something... I just
hope that if I do decide to keep the baby
that my family can get over the shock of
it not being 1.) with my ex and 2.) white.
