Ending a Relationship Forum - Help Me! I've Dug Myself a Crater!

Okay Check it out. Me and my g-f have been 2gether for 1.5 years. We will call her C. When we met she was 16 and i was 17. Our relationship was great and healthy for about 6 months-at that time, her being my only G.F., i wanted to date othere girls, so i ended it.

After we broke up she became depressed and all that stuff. I still helped her out- gave her rides home- went to her b-day and stuff like that but we were apart.

So i had a stint with some girl who i had met at work. we dated had sex the normal stuff but that relationship grew stale as she was a boring pothead/hippie chick. Instead of ending it and looking 4 a new girl, I figured well, was C so bad? I still had feelings for her, so we got back togeter(which I now HUGELY regret)

So times were good for a bit but I noticed she had emotionally changed. on her 17th birthday(whle we were apart) she said she had tried to cut her wrists(i looked and it was a feeble attempt) and she had HORRIBLE self asteem."wish I didnt exist" "wish id never been born" were commonplace.

And then the drama started with her dad. He basically didnt know that i existed for like the first 6 months of the relationship. I had always got her home on time and he thought she was out with "friends". Anyways I guess her stepmom is a [edit] and mistreated her all the time while her dad was working.

So it was before thanksgiveng when things started gettin funky. We went out and did stuff that day and when i went to bring her home, she refused to go inside. She said she had been abused and didnt want to go back. Note that she was 17 at that time. So me being the boyfriend invited her to spend the night at my sisters house(which my sister reluntantly agreed to). Tried to bring her home the next day then the next then the next...Lots of conflicts and crying as she tryed to run off every time. She spent through thanksgivng with me and my fam. Her dad had no idea where she was the whole time.

So then her dad and family find her at work. the police were called and her dad and stepmom were both present. She basically wouldnt say n.e. thing to her dad or the police officer. She just sat there with tears on her face, seeming to ignore everything. Well bottom line she was forced to go back home and she had no bruises or n.e.thing like that from abuse.

Well by then her dad hates me and rightly so. So I hardly ever get to see her- and she acts like depressed. Sleeping and lying around all day-not eating or participating in any family stuff. Not listening and all that caca. Well that goes on for about a month or two- then one day she wasn't listening to her dad and he hit her- dragged her around by her hair and hit her some more. She called me from a friends house and i came to see her. She did have bruises and stuff and we did call the police. So they basically said dont go home and find a safe place to stay for the time being.-My sister's.

So she stayed with us for about 2 weeks-crying everyday suicide talk everyday and eventually my sis told her she couldnt stay with us n.e.more so she had to stay with a friend for a while. eventually my sister let her back and we lived together at my sisters for a few months. At this point theres suicide talk nearly EVERYDAY running out-udont luv mes-all that. So my sis tells her again that she has to leave. well she freaked out and said that she wuz going to throw herself in front of a moving car and seemed delirious so my sis called the po's.

well she ended up in a phsyche ward in a hospitol for evaluation. They said that she just was depressed and easilly saddened. gave her a perscription which she never filled and kicked her out the door basically.

so she stayed with another friend and i searched frantically for an apartment so she'd have a place to stay. found one and we moved in together. first month was ok but she is always depressed and suicide talk all the time and since her dad basically disowned her, she has nowhere to stay and noone but me! I was okay with that for a while but after so many childish fits and needless arguments EVERY SINGLE DAY how could i want to spend the rest of my life with her when i dont even want to spend the rest of my DAY with her?

Im stuck and miserable and i dont know what to do. I want to break up with her but she'd have nowhere to go. She says she would kill herself if we broke up. Even though i dont think she would do that, thats not a chance i want to make. I couldn't handle havuing a human life end because of my actions.

I just don't know what to do,please help!!!