Hello
I'm a 15 years old guy, and about 10
months ago I had sex - for the first time
- with a 26 years old guy. We had met
through a chatroom, and became friends
afterwards. We decided to see each other
in person only 6 months after we met. Due
to the somewhat vast age gap, I hesitated
at first whether to have sex with him or
not. Then I decided that age has no
importance at all and since I trusted him,
I agreed to sleep with him.
We had safe anal sex (me being bottom)
using condom. I can't know whether a break
has occurred during the intercourse or
not. However, later at some stage, he
removed his condom and wanted to continue
sex without it. He was close to
penetrating me when I realised he wasn't
wearing his condom, and I can't remember
whether he touched my anus at all, but I
refused at once and told him to put on
another one. Moreover, the oral sex we had
was, of course, without condoms.
I am VERY occupied lately with the issue
and I'm afraid I might have got HIV. I
trusted him before and I do now. I asked
him if he has been tested and he told me
yes and that he is certainly negative. He
told me to stop worrying and if I keep
thinking about the issue too much, it'll
be hard for me to have sex with anyone.
We're still in contact so far, and it's
hard for me to think of him as a deceiver,
but I can't stop worrying. Many people
probably trusted their partners and got
HIV at last, didn't they?
Why do you think he wanted to penetrate me
without a condom? Did he want to get me
infected, or was it because it's just more
fun that way? (I don't know because I
never tried it) The age gap increases the
anxiety even more, had he been playing on
me and exploiting the fact that I'm
young?
I don't know what to do. Do you think I
should take the test? I really want to
take it so I can be sure whether I'm
negative or not, but I don't know where to
go and what to do. It's restraining me
from moving on and searching for other
partners because I don't want to get
anyone infected, if that was the case
(God, I hope not
) Plus, blood tests
are recorded in one's health card - are
HIV tests recorded as well? Because my
aunt is a nurse and I really don't want
her to know that I took the test, it's
quite embarrassing. Is there anyway to do
it anonymously?
Please help..
Thanks in advance.
