Hiya...
Just wanted to share a few of my recent
experiences with everyone and see if
anyone knows what could be the root
cause...
I rarely drink, probably went out drinking
3 times in the last 6 months or so, tho
everytime i manage to get completly drunk
to the point of extreme confusion, I dont
know who i am, where im supposed to be
going, what im supposed to be doing,
couldn't recognise anyone if you slapped
me in the face and told me it was my
mother.
Additionally i mange to say lots of
hurtful things to several close people,
girlfriend, friends and family, (depending
who im out with or over the phone)
Most people take it for what it is, matts
drunk and talkin gibberish, tho my
girlfriend is really not happy, regardless
of the fact i dont know what im doing, im
doing it to her, insults (which can be
pretty harsh), scaring her to death with
her thinking i could be getting run over,
falling into a canal ect.
Dont get me wrong, i know the actual cause
of this is drinking alcohol but why does
this affect me and how come i can never
remember any of this? normally lasts for
a couple of hours and i tend to go off on
my own when im in the said state. I
really dont want to lose my relationship
because of this and obviously the threat
of my relationship is enough to cause me
to look at this seriously and slow right
down when im occasionally out.
