well. i'm sorry to disappoint but no baby yet.

i've actually been home for while now but i didn't have the heart to come on here and tell anyone. i feel like i'm letting people down and i know how silly that is but i guess it's hormones and all that. i feel a bit sad and empty 'cause i really thought it was going to happen. anyway, i saw the doctor and he did a membrane sweep and i'm still having some pain and a lot of bloody show. but on the bright side, baby's heartbeat is strong and healthy, the doctor isn't worried at all and my blood pressure is fine. also, the weather has cooled a bit so i was finally able to have some real good, quality sleep this afternoon.
**SIGH** lol. no one stays pregnant forever!!! it only feels like it sometimes.
thanks so much everyone for being so kind and concerned it's really very touching and it helps me stay positive.