Is This a Second Chance Or Hell???????????????????? Posted: 07-27-07 12:26pm
Years ago I went through a heart
transplant, now I deal with the day 2 day
of that, with flashbacks to the pain and
loss (I had to be in another state with
very very little family support, and what
was left of my family dissolved through a
death in the family). I have always been
depressed, couldn't tell you what happy
is, Can you? I find that NO ONE can be
trusted, I have no dreams, and have truly
found that I pretty much cant stand
anyone. I feel I experienced death during
my surgery, I lost 2 days. If that is
truly what it is I hate to say it but it
is very intoxicating. I have read that it
hurts the ones left behind, well I don't
have that many here that my death would
truly effect. I look at how everyone has
carried on and are so capable of dealing
with death. I am so very tired, I pray to
GOD that I pass. I don't know why I'm even
writing this i probably wont even check
back............................
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young Girl
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Posted: 07-27-07 12:28pm
do you hate me?!?!
simple question
answer
yes
or no
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Jules
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Posted: 07-27-07 13:31pm
the_girlfreind
wrote:
do you hate me?!?!
simple question
answer
yes
or no
What?
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young Girl
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Joined: 21 Jun 2007 Posts: 13932 Location: everythings better in, texas USA
Posted: 07-27-07 13:37pm
Jules
wrote:
the_girlfreind
wrote:
do you hate me?!?!
simple question
answer
yes
or no
What?
trust me im going somewhere with this
i know what im doing
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 07-27-07 15:55pm
uh.. why would she hate you?
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2ofheart
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Joined: 27 Jul 2007 Posts: 2
Posted: 07-27-07 17:51pm
No I don't hate you, I don't know you. I
am at a point in life that has my trust
completely disfunctional. Plus I seem to
be insecure to the point I need control, I
know that is impossible but still. I am
male not a she..
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Jules
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Joined: 19 Aug 2006 Posts: 3762 Location: Merrie Englande, UK
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Posted: 07-28-07 14:59pm
the_girlfreind
wrote:
trust me im going somewhere with this
i know what im
doing
Please enlighten us all
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derby
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Joined: 25 Jul 2007 Posts: 3 Location: lancaster co. pa
Second Chance Posted: 07-28-07 15:07pm
I can only imagine what you have gone
through. Do you have a friend you can
call or a Dr. you trust? Perhaps you may
be having a hard time due to reaction of
medications. Medications can cause some
of us not to feel well and some actually
do cause depression. Please call someone
and try to get some understanding of what
you are feeling. I pray that you can find
positive answers to help you feel
better.........
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Blue Sky Sprite
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Joined: 11 Aug 2007 Posts: 15 Location: ,
Posted: 08-12-07 01:08am
My friend got stabbed in the face and lost
so much blood that his died trying to dial
to speak to his baby daughter.
These stories will affect people but
obviously they aint gonna come running
just do what you can man
Let the praise come from above
set example
utilise all you know from deep within you
back to the days of
egyptians...(farfetched caca I know) but
think about it....the people
then...whether we have primary sources or
not....they made something out of
nothing.
That is inspiring to me.
And look at us now...we cant be the lost
causes....we must set example for the
human race
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Blue Sky Sprite
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Joined: 11 Aug 2007 Posts: 15 Location: ,
Posted: 08-12-07 01:15am
and that isnt some patriotic tip thats
from the heart
I feel everyone has their purpose...it
cant be any other way
to devoid your own purpose it to devoid
mine...and I wont have that
there is a meaning to life
and there plenty reason enough for you to
be here and to come back here after doing
more with yourself and finding your
dreams...
the reason is me...to be selfish....in a
way lol bt past our persona we are all
one....I feel the earths pain...i see
it....i hear it
but I must be the earth's victory as
well...because thats all I know
I wanna do myself proud
And I feel that in the breeze...I see it
in the kids
its called motherfucking life....grab it
by the horns brother.
Not because you have to but because Im
demaning you to.
I have a feeling that everyone I
communicate with in any way will feel my
"way"....and likewise...I have crossed
paths with all you above me in here...
Ive seen what you type...Ive heard the
stories...now
__________________________________________
_____
Life begins again...I dunno about you but
its a beautiful morning Im gonna have a
cigarette and listen to Soft Machine
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derby
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Joined: 25 Jul 2007 Posts: 3 Location: lancaster co. pa
Second Chance Posted: 08-12-07 13:35pm
There is a song that I just love and the
lyrics go something like this
"Life ain't always beautiful, sometimes
its just damn hard, life ain't always
beauitful, but it's a hell of a ride"..
As a wife of a man with 10 percent heart
function left, the daughter of a mother
with stage 4 breast cancer and a sister of
a 45 year old brother with colon cancer,
diaignoised within 3 weeks, I've got to
tell you, it can be damn hard but I choose
to go for the ride!!!!! And go for the
good times that life has to
offer...........blessings to all of you!!!
