how many of you people out there
been hurt by some kind of love affair
and how many times do you swear that
you'll never love again?
these r words from Stings ''Brand New Day"
at the moment i am swear myself loneliness
for ages. and i would like to trough out
from inside of me the reason why i'm doing
this.. so..
to be clear.. i'm 16 and i believe that
teenagers at this age can, even need
love.. teenagers nowadays seems to be so
easy-going and not emotionally. but it
isn't true. they want to look like this.
they don't receive much love at home from
parents who are busy or isolated like mine
but it's other story.. so in my opinion
every boy and girl 15 years over need
somebody close..
so i know a girl. her name's Kate. she's
14. we know each other for round 4 years.
she's very mature as 14 years girl. from
the beginning it was strange relationship.
she had known only me in gymnasium. we
were close. she were visiting me many
times. we watched films, fondle on the
bed.. at least i falled in love with her.
but she didn't want to be with me, couse
she said i'm only a friend.. i don't
wanted to still have this relationship
couse i didn't imagine frindship when i'm
in love.. i must say i didn't tell her
that i love her. i told '' i care bout ya
and wanna be with you.." maybe that's
important, i don't know. well.. there was
long time we haven't meet besides school.
she's the most beautiful girl in the world
with high IQ and low EGO so she fast found
new "friends". but she still couldn't
orget bout me couse she sends me mails
regular, and i couldn's forget bout her..
well.. there was one disco when she meet
cool,handsome guy (my good mate) and i saw
them dancing all night. i wanted to show
that i don't care so when other girls
wanted to dance with Jarek (his name) i
asked them. so we can say i helped Kata
and Jarek.. spite myself. the mails from
Kate stopped, she lead relationship with
him like with me.. i've been very sad
theese days, couse a lil bit i helped it.
well.. Kate write to me one time or i
write to her and we started to talk to
each other.. i thought that i don't love
her anymore so we could be friends, andwe
become. there was a NY eve party in my
house and there were Kata and Jarek
invited. on the party Kate acted strange..
she sit me on my knees and hug me
soundly.. she wasn't dancing at all albeit
every boy in party asked her (Jarek
mostly) i was sad couse it was my party
and i didn't wanted anybody to sit i asked her. and
she danced with me.. now old times has
returned.. and i don't know i should be
happy or miserable.. couse now i told her
that i love her but she balance to be with
me or to not. she tells she don't want to
hurt me. but she hurts me to make me
wait.. i can't understand her.. i beleive
she don't knows what she wants.. now i
decided to end this couse waiting is
hutring too much.. and i think i'll have a
biggest hole i ever had..
that's it.. sorry for all language
mistakes i made
greetings, Conrad
|
Willa Weintraub
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Mar 2007 Posts: 3399 Location: The Beach!
Thanks: 30
Thanked:46
Posted: 08-03-07 10:48am
this girl sounds like she just wants
attention and she is giving you mixed
signals. I would forget her. She's with
your friend and all she is going to do is
keep playing games.Besides,would you like
it if your friend went after your gf?
|
Just_a_boy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Aug 2007 Posts: 4 Location: Poland
Re Posted: 08-03-07 12:38pm
the thing is she's never been gf either of
me and him..
|
Willa Weintraub
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Mar 2007 Posts: 3399 Location: The Beach!
Thanks: 30
Thanked:46
Re: Re Posted: 08-03-07 12:49pm
Just_a_boy
wrote:
the thing is she's never
been gf either of me and
him..
I thought you asid she
was his gf? Well stil,it sounds like she
just wants attention and is playing games.
don't give that to her. If she likes you
she will stick around and start showing
you other signs of wanting to be with
you,like maybe telling you. She has told
you she doesn't see you like hat and she
knows you like her so you letting her play
you is saying to her it's ok that you
don't wan tto be with me but you can have
your way with me. . ya know? I hope i'm
making sense,I'm so scatter brained today!
|
Just_a_boy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Aug 2007 Posts: 4 Location: Poland
Re Posted: 08-03-07 14:51pm
yeea.. i'm just lost in it U know.. i
don't know what she wants.. supposedly she
don't have to explain from her
relationship with Jarek to me but i see
she wants to.. some days when i'm so
resigned she talks to me the way i think
she care.. maybe i'm too jealous for her..
last time we've quarreled by a 23 years
old guy who's Kate's "friend" sorry- it
looks strange to me- how can guy at that
age be friend with 14 yo girl.. specially
if i know Kate's definition of
friendship.. i'm so in love with her, i
don't see other girls but i don't want to
wait for her.. couse now it's kind of
situation that she's thinking bout being
with me.. however i can't wait any longer
and i'm decided to cut this if it needs..
|
j_j89
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Jul 2007 Posts: 19
Posted: 08-03-07 15:50pm
Hi there, seems like a frustrating
situation you are in. Its always hard to
love someone who doesn't feel the same way
about you. First and foremost, I agree
very very much with Jessica. Also its good
that she has commented on this as a woman,
forums like this are good because its nice
when a woman comments on a subject about
another woman because women have a pretty
good handle on how women think. Also from
personal experience, do NOT let her play
you. My very first relationship I was
heartbroken, now i look back on it and see
that it was SO RIDICULOUS that I put so
much energy into her after her treating me
like crap. I would shift all of that
energy and attention of her and on to
yourself. Make yourself happy before you
go out looking for someone else to make
you happy. If you try to get someone else
to make you truly happy you will be
setting yourself up for possibly a
lifetime of heartache. A partner should
never be the end all and be all. It would
be lovely if the world actually worked out
that way. Stand up for yourself, and i
promise you if you drop her and her
negative relations toward you. I can just
about say with a lot of confidence that
she will realize what she is doing and get
in touch with you. Things often work out
this way. But you are right in that you
should not wait for her, even if she does
come around people do not often change,
they get better. Even if she does come for
you, I would just keep on moving. You
never want to work backwards. You want to
be with someone who is going to respect
you. There are so many women out there who
just want to be loved by someone who is
not an problem, so you'll get one in good
time. Good luck
i asked her. and
she danced with me.. now old times has
returned.. and i don't know i should be
happy or miserable.. couse now i told her
that i love her but she balance to be with
me or to not. she tells she don't want to
hurt me. but she hurts me to make me
wait.. i can't understand her.. i beleive
she don't knows what she wants.. now i
decided to end this couse waiting is
hutring too much.. and i think i'll have a
biggest hole i ever had..
