Hi everyone, I just joined ehealth, so
this will be my 1st post.
I'm 22 years old and I have
inherited/developed the wonderful "Drink
till no end" problem, a.k.a. Alcoholism.
My first beer was at about 6. I desired
drunkness ever since...
I started drinking heavily about 2-3 years
ago and I feel like I've been drunk the
whole time. I managed to quit for 32 days
at one point. That was my personal best.
But I decided to party one time with
friends, and low and behold I was
plastered 24-7 from then on, again.
I love to drink but I hate drinking. I
love being drunk. I hate waking up after
a drunk. I know I need to quit. But when
I stop for a few days, (I can usually go
about 2-3 days without), all my motivation
to stay sober, all the tricks I had
planned to maintain this time, all the
backup plans even, they all fail. The
thought of a beer, margarita, jack and
coke, shot of tequila, this is the only
thing that fills my mind. At this point
I'm doomed. I will drink. I can't get it
off my mind. If in the case it is
impossible for me to drink, I will lay
awake in bed all night, restless, but sure
to buy a 24pk and a bottle first thing in
the morning.
I know there are probably a lot of 10-20
year alcoholics that might think I'm just
a party college student, and I will get
over it. Wrong! My dad, my brother, my
grandmother; its as if it was my destiny
to drink my life away, damn irish/scottish
roots...
Sorry about the lengthy post, I just need
to get this off my chest.
Everyone is on to me and the sh*t is so
close to hitting the fan; parents,
girlfriend, brothers, friends, etc. They
all see I'm destroying my life but I
continue to deny it and argue with them.
Can I get some responses please, all this
talk is making me thirsty. I don't want
to screw up again tonight, I would like to
change.
seefigure68
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seefigure68
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Aug 2007 Posts: 27 Location: Texas
Posted: 08-17-07 23:15pm
Doesn't anyone on here care?! I'm a 22 yr
old, 100% alcoholic! Please! I need
people to give me assurance that I am not
alone...Can anyone talk to me about this??
Thats what i thought this site was about.
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shadowalker164
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jan 2005 Posts: 175 Location: Tampa, FL
Posted: 08-18-07 18:14pm
Hello see, I am one of those 10, 20 year
drunks you talked about. I guess you have
figured out quitting is a lot harder than
just saying, “I quit!”
All of us have said at one point or
another, I quit and we meant it, we were
as serious as a heart attack. But within
24 hours, maybe as long as week, we were
back drinking.
It’s what we do, as alcoholics, we drink
even when we don’t really want to.
I haven’t found it necessary to pick up
that next in an endless string of drinks
in over eight years. And see, this is how
I did it. I showed up at my first
Alcoholics Anonymous meeting, I got a
sponsor and I did the steps.
I had no expectation that this AA business
would fix what was wrong with me, but I
didn’t have a better idea. They told me
90 meetings in 90 days, show up, it down,
and listen, I just might learn something.
Again welcome
Richard
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young Girl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jun 2007 Posts: 13932 Location: everythings better in, texas USA
Posted: 08-18-07 18:36pm
hello
i care!!!!!! sorry i didnt respond sooner
i havent been to this part of the forum in
a while
have you been to a support group or
anything?
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seefigure68
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Aug 2007 Posts: 27 Location: Texas
Posted: 08-19-07 15:37pm
I've been to AA once, it wasn't really a
good experience but I'd be willing to try
again. I used to talk to a campus
therapist and I think I'm going to return
in the fall semester. I think going cold
turkey would be best, but how will I sleep
for the next month(s)? How will I handle
the withdrawals and the cravings? I
thought about medications for these
problems but I didn't want to get on a
sleep aid addiction, I want natural
sleep!!! Anybody had any luck, whats the
best recipe for success?
seefigure68
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meblonde01
Supporter
Joined: 11 Apr 2007 Posts: 2113 Location: ,
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Posted: 08-19-07 15:55pm
seefigure68
wrote:
I've been to AA once, it
wasn't really a good experience but I'd be
willing to try again. I used to talk to a
campus therapist and I think I'm going to
return in the fall semester. I think
going cold turkey would be best, but how
will I sleep for the next month(s)? How
will I handle the withdrawals and the
cravings? I thought about medications for
these problems but I didn't want to get on
a sleep aid addiction, I want natural
sleep!!! Anybody had any luck, whats the
best recipe for success?
seefigure68
seefigure I sent you an IM
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young Girl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jun 2007 Posts: 13932 Location: everythings better in, texas USA
Posted: 08-19-07 15:57pm
seefigure68
wrote:
I've been to AA once, it
wasn't really a good experience but I'd be
willing to try again. I used to talk to a
campus therapist and I think I'm going to
return in the fall semester. I think
going cold turkey would be best, but how
will I sleep for the next month(s)? How
will I handle the withdrawals and the
cravings? I thought about medications for
these problems but I didn't want to get on
a sleep aid addiction, I want natural
sleep!!! Anybody had any luck, whats the
best recipe for success?
seefigure68
the best luck is to find something to quit
for ya know?
everyone is different and you are SO BRAVE
to try and quit
maybe you dont have to quit cold turkey?
juts simply slow down
buy ONE beer a day and dont ever keep
anything around to drink
i dunno maybe that will help ya? i hope so
because it sounds like you are very
determined to quit
the reason why i mention AA s because its
grrreat to talke to people in the same
situation as you who have been there or
are even going through it ya know?
best of luck though and you have a very
good head on your shoulders so i hope it
all works out for you
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