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Really Long. Posted: 08-19-07 11:52am
So, just so everyone knows, Tommy & I
have officially broken up.
It's starting to be a lot harder than what
I'd thought it would be. At first when we
were on our "break" I was okay, probably
because it wasn't official yet, and then I
started talking to this guy Matt, because
with everything going on, I just wanted to
have fun and try to have a good time while
all of this was going on (while tommy and
I weren't talking for almost 2 weeks). I
guess I was trying to get my mind off of
it.
Well, he eventually got back on and said
"i guess I'm ready to try again if you
are" and I told him to give me a few more
days, but it ended up being the next night
that I called him crying. & on the
16th, things just weren't feeling right, I
didn't feel like his heart was in it,
& I didn't feel like mine was either,
so I asked him if he thought we were
wasting our time & if he was still in
love with me, he said he didn't know what
he felt.
So we talked about breaking up, we argued
a little bit, and it ended with him saying
"it was great while it lasted, i wish you
the best"
he doesn't even want to be friends with me
anymore. He said he doesn't want to put
himself through that, & I guess I
understand, but it's hard to accept. It's
hard to accept that he wants to throw away
2 years of our lives, throw it behind his
shoulder like a wadded up piece of paper
and move on. I'm coming to realize that
I'll never see him again, or that I'll
never kiss him or hold him again, I'll
never have late night conversations with
him again, and it's really driving me
crazy. This is the 3rd time I've cried and
I've been up for an hour.
I'm sorry, I'm not trying to be a cry
baby, it's just confusing. He's been my
best friend for 4 years, he's been my
boyfriend for over 2. He's been there for
me through everything, through the bill
situation, through my family breaking up
and going seperate ways, through every
little fight that me and my mom have had,
we traveled thousands of miles to see each
other, and made this last for over 2
years, and now, just when we're finally
reaching the end, when we're finally going
to be living together in less than a year,
we break up.
ugh, I just needed to vent. I thought it
was going to be easier, everyone keeps
telling me that I sound okay about it, but
I guess now that I'm finally realizing
these things, I'm not okay.
I really hope you guys can be friends.. it
might just take a while. He's probably
feeling confused too, so give him time.
I wish I could say something to make you
feel better. I love you hun, &
remember I'm always here for you if you
feel like talking.
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monkeygirl22
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Posted: 08-19-07 12:20pm
It is going to be hard. I had a long
distance relationship for nearly two years
with a boy I was totally in love with. We
didn't talk a lot at first but after about
6 months to a year we started talking and
we would visit each other. I really hope
you two can rekindle the friendship
because that would be a terrible thing to
lose.
I love you and holler at me on here or
facebook anytime.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 08-19-07 12:28pm
Thanks girls, I really love you both too
Id write more but im in a hurry, going to
maryville to visit some friends, ill be
back later tonight. thanks for being here
for me
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AyaMiyaki
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Posted: 08-19-07 12:40pm
Aww Terra, I'm so sorry! Maybe when things
calm down you two will be able to talk
again. Right now it's still pretty fresh
and raw. He's probably hurting just as
much as you are, if that makes you feel
better. And if it wasn't meant to be, at
least this happened before
you moved down there and not after.
I'm here if you need me, Terra bear! <3
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Mommy35
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Posted: 08-19-07 13:14pm
I'm really sorry Terra. Breaking up is
hard to do. It's hard to imagine being
just friends with someone that you have
been in a relationship with. I'm sure
once you both have time to think and heal
you'll be able to be friends.
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yellow ribbon
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Posted: 08-19-07 14:08pm
ugh terra in sorry it
hurts me your sad. I hope things work for
the best and your heart heals quickly. I
dont understand how he could put so much
in to that relationship and not want to
talk again.
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Bratz72
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Posted: 08-19-07 15:22pm
Sorry too hear Terra....i can understand
where he is coming from bout not wanting
too be friends and i can understand your
hurt of him not wanting that ( i have been
in both places ) give him time and im
sure he will come too reason maybe a break
is what you both need ...absence makes the
heart grow fonder ...
whant me to go and hit him for ya maybe
kick him i have steel toed shoes
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 08-19-07 21:29pm
no sadie lol a lot of this is my fault. i
said things that i shouldn't have.
thanks for being here guys, it got worse
tonight, but i don't really want to get
into details, it just really sucks that it
has to end this way. i have a headache and
i just want this to be a dream :/
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young Girl
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Posted: 08-19-07 21:38pm
terra
i just read your whole post i know me and you
dont get along very well at all but im
really sorry about what you are going
through
i dont even know what to say. i cant tell
you "oh youll be ok in time" because its
hard. and hey i know you probably have
alo0t of friends already to talk to
but...im definately here if you need it or
if you are up late one night and you dont
have any one else to talk to ok? just PM
me anytime
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TheBadGuy
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Posted: 08-19-07 21:53pm
Lol I don't blame you for not disclosing
the details. I wouldn't tell my friends if
I was planning on lying to my boyfriend
about being on birth control to trick him
into getting me pregnant either. Or if I
was flirting with some guy and getting on
webcam for him and crap while I was still
going out with my boyfriend.
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young Girl
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Posted: 08-19-07 21:54pm
TheBadGuy
wrote:
Lol I don't blame you for
not disclosing the details. I wouldn't
tell my friends if I was planning on lying
to my boyfriend about being on birth
control to trick him into getting me
pregnant either. Or if I was flirting with
some guy and getting on webcam for him and
crap while I was still going out with my
boyfriend.
WHAT?!?! in the heck are you talking
about?!
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TheBadGuy
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Joined: 19 Aug 2007 Posts: 6
Posted: 08-19-07 21:55pm
I'm just letting you guys know that terra
isn't the nice innocent person she
pretends to be. Hell, she had me fooled
for 2 and a half years.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 08-19-07 22:21pm
jesus christ tommy, did you not just see
me say that it was my fault?
you don't see me going on your forum bad
mouthing you, do you?
i didn't have you fooled about a thing, i
messed up in the end, if you're wanting to
talk about it you need to do it over msn
or an email, not on the forum trying to
make me look like a bad person.
edit: and if you're going to make me look
like a bad person, at least say
everything. I wasn't planning on getting
on birth control and lying to you RIGHT
NOW, I said in the future. I want kids
more than anything, and we've taked about
it our whole relationship, and all of a
sudden you say you don't, and i said in
the future, if you decided that you
didn't, that that's what I'd do. yup, and
people know it already. It was wrong to
say it and I know that, quit.
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TheBadGuy
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Joined: 19 Aug 2007 Posts: 6
Posted: 08-19-07 22:30pm
Ok, #1. You're right, I shouldn't have got
on here. Although, if the things you do
reveal you to be a bad person when someone
tells the truth about them then perhaps
you shouldn't do them. A tree doesn't know
it's a tree.
And I do not see how tricking me into
getting you pregnant in the future is
better than tricking me into getting you
pregnant now?
And I don't know if I want kids or not,
but I sure as hell don't want to be
tricked into having them. I'd like to
decide whether or not I want them before I
have them, and I'd like to be with someone
who respects and loves me enough to not
lie about something as huge as being on
birth control.
Sorry everyone for posting all of this
drama on the forum, I realise this isn't
the place and I apologize.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 08-19-07 22:33pm
I know it was wrong of me to say, I've
said it a million times.
and I do love you.
and I don't know what to say. Maybe
sometime we'll have a calm conversation
about things where you can look at my
side, too.
or maybe not, but i hope so.
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hopefulmjz
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Posted: 08-19-07 22:34pm
If you don't want anything to do with
Terra, why are you here?
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TheBadGuy
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Joined: 19 Aug 2007 Posts: 6
Posted: 08-19-07 22:48pm
Terra, you don't have a side. It's
impossible to rationalize tricking someone
into getting you pregnant. I know how much
you love kids, knowing that I'm sure we
would have had them. Although finding out
someone is willing to lie to you about
something like that changes your views on
things a bit.
Letting me think about it for a couple of
years until we were remotely close to
having kids and THEN having a rational
conversation about it is the way to go
about it.
And I DO want to have something to do with
Terra, I WANT everything to do with her.
I'm more hurt and confused than she is, I
do not see why she's being made out to
have the short end of this bargain.
Everyone just brushes it off with a
"everyone makes mistakes". That's horribly
ignorant. This is not a "everyone makes
mistakes" situation.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 08-19-07 22:55pm
You told me that you DIDNT want kids, you
told me you were leaning twords no, and
this was a few weeks before I even wrote
that PM, you told me that you didn't
really like babies and that you didn't
know if you wanted them. How am I supposed
to feel? yeah, I'm 17 and I have years to
think about it and so do you, but you,
knowing how much I love kids and babies,
want me to react in a different way?
How would you take it if someone you've
been in love with for over 2 years told
you something that could change your life?
Told you something probably wouldn't
happen, that something being what you look
forward to everyday. I may be young, but I
wouldn't be on this forum for 2 years if I
didn't love kids this much, which is why
it hurt me, which is why I wrote the pm in
the first place.
I know it was wrong and I could never say
I'm sorry enough.
*i can't believe i'm fighting like this
over the forum with my boyfriend, which is
whyyy it's been taken to a pm*
it
hurts me your sad. I hope things work for
the best and your heart heals quickly. I
dont understand how he could put so much
in to that relationship and not want to
talk again.
