Life Sucks...

What happened?

its just everything with my husband. and trying to get help from the state and all.

I personally can't imagine it myself, but you can't think of it as all bad. The only way you can go is up now. So, just think, it will get better. I know from my sister's experience that getting help from the state is a real pain. I know she got really frustrated because the state does drag on stuff like that but it'll go through eventually. It did for her. But, killing yourself isn't the right answer. Is there anything you can do to make yourself feel better? Anything to get your mind off of it? A craft or something? Just don't hurt yourself. It's not worth it. Think of how much you love your kids and the joy you feel for them. You know in your heart that they need you.

chase you seem to be a very tough person and you an get through all of this. Don't resort to killing yourself. Your children would not be sad, they would be devastated. WHere would they be in 10 years if you kill yourself? Who knows what could happen. Don't you want to see them grow up and have children?

If you aren't on anti-depressants you should consider it.

Also a counselor would be helpful.

I'm sorry things are bad right now. No one is really entitled to happiness, we have to work for it and earn it.

Exercise helps with depression. It might seem insulting to have it suggested when you are actually talking about suicide, but don't under estimate it's impact. It helped me a lot. Sweat out those bad feelings.

Could you go to a womans shelter for a while or something? I'm sure they would be able to help you get set up with state assistance.

jaime

last night i was thinking about you and how everything was going infact i was going to post a topic and see if anyone knew how you were

whats happened so far with your husband? are you guys back home yet?

i would not even know who to talk to here or where to go. every place i go for help they tell me to wait weeks.

i have not been able to eat or sleep.





my husband does not know what he wants right now. to me he wants to live the single life and see his kids when he wants to and pay me child support when he wants to

That sucks! I think anyone would feel so down with that going on.

I hope you feel better soon. Be strong for your beautiful girls.

that is not a good situation at all with hubby im so sorry do you have any friends or family that you trust and that could help you? tell the state or pub aide on how you are feeling you need to seek help asap hun and fast if not for you then please think of your kids cause if you are not around then they will go to your hubby or pos your dad.

Chase I know how you feel, Ive never been in your situation but Im really struggling with depression right now too.
Are you on anti-depressants? Im on zoloft. My doctor increased the dose 2 days ago but im still feeling awful. Last night I cried for hours, thankfully jay was sleeping, and I did something really stupid. Its so hard having these thoughts and feelings about myself and life, im just hoping the tablets will help soon.

I walk the puppy twice a day so I get enough exercise but maybe doing more would help me...worth a try. I doubt you have the time with being a mom to twins. A couple of people on here have been really supportive, and it usually helps to vent to someone about how you feel, especially someone who's been through it or going through it too. Find someone you can confide in about everything.

Hope you'll be okay. Think of your family, it would hurt them so much to lose you, thats what stops me. I think you should make an emergency doctors appointment.

Morgan

Try to find your local crisis line if you are in a metro area. Call the human services building and they should know it. I hope you have one close toyou.

Jaime, I understand TOTALLY what you are going through, although I only had my daughter to take care of. I can not imagine twins...well, yes I can. From reading post you have written in hte past, I know you are a fighter. You are strong and intelligent and are a good Mom. I have dealt with depression for over 30 years. Look at yourself in the mirror girlfriend and tell yourself you are important...you are somebody, you are a Mother to two beautiful little girls who need you and will respect you for who you are. I read you left Georgia (its where I am) and went to Tenn. My Mother lives in Tenn. Can you not go to Family and Childrens Services in the county you are living in and tell them you have no where to go? I have no idea where you have gone or to whom and what oyu have applied for, so I don't know how to answer questions you may have, but you can avoid the hurry up and wait weeks trip if you see the right people. Please feel free to IM me and I will do what I can to find out what kind of help you are eligible for. Here, you could get on WIC, Food Stamps and there are lots of organizations and churches that could set you up in housekeeping and get you the help you would need to get on your feet. If you went and applied at the local Tech School, there is a program for single Mothers (child day care, books tuition etc) is paid for just for you to go back to school to learn a trade.........I did it! I was 32 years old but I did it... There are so many of us out here to want to help you and be here for you.......and though we may never meet.....we care about you! As I said, please feel free to IM me any time....I know what its like to wish you weren't here any more.............Now I cherish every day....well almost! HUGS>>>>>>>>>&g t;>

that sucks, when it rains it pours. It just that so much negative is going on and no posotive , as to why your feeling this way, killing yourself wouldnt solve anything. You have kids to live for to watch grow , who love there mommy. Sometimes it can be hard to find help , if your seriously feeling like killing yourself just go to the ER. Chances are theyll send u to a mental ward but there theyd be able to set you up with counselors and everything else to talk to. But its a good thing you came on here to let people know you are feeling this way rather then not telling anyone at all. I hope your doing ok.

First things first, have you gone to your local welfare office with all the necessary forms (birth certs and soc cards)? This needs to be done ASAP. Don't be concerned with a single thing your husband says about wanting to be single/not wanting to be single. Just do what you have to do to survive.

Get a WIC appointment also. Go to the local low income housing office and apply for housing. There are often long waiting lists but this is a step in the right direction.

Tanya suggested exercise, she is so clever. Exercise will help you to get out of the house, get natural light (a mood booster) and get your endorphins up. All of those things will help you become less depressed. Having a schedule will also help. Not looking at the same rooms inside a house, having something to do will help you move in a forward motion. That is exactly what you need to do right now. No looking back to what was making you unhappy ~ the future is unknown and if you put the effort into it, the future is way better than whatever you had in the past.

Good luck. Do something positive for you today!

hun i was where you are now last year. i was suicidial when neil left me and the kids. i felt my whole life was over. i think most of the girls on here will remember what i went through. just know this- it WILL get better. NO matter how much it seems like it won't right now. You're two beautiful girls need their mum, just like my two did.

I spent many nights crying over my life but then I realised that I had actually been given a second chance at life. a chance to be happy with me babies instead of in a loveless marriage.

i'm sorry but you deserve better than him. he sounds utterly selfsih like neil. any man who even considers a life without his family and has to 'decide' what life he wants doesn't deserve a second chance.

by all means let him see the girls. neil still see's my two but i will never forgive him for abandoning us to lead a life with no responsibilites. i don't hate him, but i don't like him much either.

get all the help you need money wise and from any friends and family. i am here any time you need to talk. i will pm you my msn and email address.

you WILL pull through this and come out even stronger and a role model for your daughters

Tell her Beckster! I remember last year and you were so very sad......I am so very happy you over came the downfall. It does my heart good to see these women pick themselves up by hte boot string and carry on. I totally agree with everything you say, as you have been htere nad done that as well. Life does go on and it gets BETTER and BETTER...there are real men out there who appreciate women and put their family first.... Real men who don't have to "decide" if they want to me single....Hey, asswipe, let me decide for you..............you are to the curb!!!!!!! BEen there and done that too!