Binge Eating Disorder -- What Can I Do? Posted: 08-24-07 09:08am
Hello there,
I'm really confused and irritated about
myself and also about my life, about my
eating behaviour and ect.
First to say, I'm 18 and a half years and
my life was sort of a disaster. My parents
divorced when I was only a little kid,
father's alcoholic, mother as well (well,
rather was) and I lived with my mother
that didn't care about me in any way,
still until now. So I've kind of been
alone my whole life, educated myself.
I got overweight when I reached puberty
and I have problems with my eating
behaviour ever since, as well as with my
weight.
I'm slightly overweright, my BMI is 24,5
and I don't feel comfortable with it at
all.
I isolated myself, still do, I'm so shy
and not myself when i'm in public or with
other people because I have hardly any
self-esteem and I feel like I'm
substandard (if that's the right word).
But I've got enough of it. I went to a few
therapists and talked to them, but didn't
do anything further in that way. I went to
my doctor and told him about my eating
behaviour and he said this was not a
normal behaviour in fact.
And now I have no idea what I am supposed
to do. I'm actually active, impulsive,
buoyant, love to talk and to laugh and for
almost two years I'm more the very
opposite. I'm rather quiet, feel
uncomfortable with myself and with
everything I do. I'm so insecure, I even
hate it sometimes to go outsides.
I was at a therapist and he offered me I
could have a therapy, but of course I have
to wait because the queue is so long. I
wasn't able to reach him until now but I'm
trying everytime I can to call him and ask
for a therapy. I really really want to
change something because I have so much
dreams I want to fulfill and I'm sure I
won't be able to do it this way, in my
constant state.
I'll graduate this year from high school
(probably), and I'll work afterwards to
collect enough money to make a year at
"Travel&work", because my dream is it
to come round the world and to find a home
I feel alright with. And because I want
this since my very childhood I'll do
anything in my possibility to manage
this.
Can a therapy help me?
For some infos.. I binge for something
like one and a half year, already did it a
few times that I purged on purpose (but I
was disgusted by it and by myself and
don't do it anymore).
I just want to be.. normal. Simply
normal.
Thanks for reading!
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Binge Eating Disorder -- What Can I Do? Posted: 09-11-07 05:55am
HI dear,
i went through anorexia, bulimia and
binging is the thing i would like to get
rid of now.
It is good that u are going for a therapy.
u seem to be very intelligent person.
have the doctors checked your hormons? if
u have a PMS pre menstrual syndrom, which
i and most women have than an eating
demand shall be striking u. a therapy
could lessen that. still i know gilrs who
have pms and binge 1-2 times a months but
having no eating disorder, loose that
excess weight during the periods naturally
even without considering it.
all of us want to be fit and this is good
so. get an advice, go to the gym and
dances. u need a social life too. look at
the tv stars not all of them are idial but
they make us adore them. they turn their
minuses into pluses. look at JLo.
i support u and know the whole universe is
on your side, otherwise u would not have
come to this world
