I Am Going to Crack-long And Radom Posted: 08-27-07 12:21pm
OK it has been 6 weeks since my best
friend ran off and got married to her ex.
A week after she was living with my
brother. I am over the anger of what she
did, now I am in the depression part. The
way i look at it, she basically died. She
had lied to me for so so long, I know she
is not the same person I thought was my
friend. that person doesn't exist
anymore, and it is so so hard for me. She
was my touchstone. She knew all of my
secrets and I thought she shared her with
me. She was there for me when i had
trouble, onflict, etc. She was ther to
listen and sometimes offer a kind word.
She was like my sister. Now it seems like
I have nobody left and it is really
killing me. I am despondent, lonely and I
feel like I am going to crack. My 14
month old has been super cranky and I just
don't have any patience for her. I feel
so terrible. I had lunch with my 5 year
old the other day and I thought to myself
"gosh this was so much easier before
Hannah came along." Then I felt like a
monster for even thinking it. I had to go
into the bathroom and bawl for like 5
minutes. My cat got eaten a few weeks
ago, my turtle ran away, I put my dog to
sleep after christmas and my other best
friend left for the Peace Corps in June.
I went back on my medication, but it just
doesn't seem to be doing the trick so
well. I even went to my acupuncturist
last week, and it really helped for about
a week, not I feel almost like I am back
at square 1. Panic attacks, afraid to be
alone with my children, etc. I am
completely wound. Thanks for listening, I
just don't know who else I can share this
with ritght now.
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Mommy35
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Posted: 08-27-07 12:34pm
I am really sorry you are feeling this
way. It sounds like you are grieving over
the loss of your best friend and
rightfully so. I think one day she will
know the mistake she has made and she'll
be lucky to be able to crawl back and have
you back in her life, that is if you
choose to forgive her.
I remember you saying your cat was
missing. Are you sure she was eaten, or
could she have lost her way or gone on a
walk about? My cat does that from time to
time. He'll be gone for a month. The
first time he did it I too thought he was
probably gone for good. Low and behold
there he was.
I had my dog put to sleep a few years back
and I still get weepy when I go through
pictures or see someone with a dog like
her. She was a great friend. Better than
any human friend has ever been.
I didn't know your turtle ran away. Was
he an outdoor pet?
You are certainly no monster for thinking
things were easier before the baby came
along. You hold your children in high
regards and it shows with how you speak of
them here.
How long have you been on the meds? Do
they need time to get into your system?
Girl, you need a calgon moment and a stiff
toddy!
*HUGS TO YOU*
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sillyakchick
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Posted: 08-27-07 13:01pm
Mommy35
wrote:
I am really sorry you are
feeling this way. It sounds like you are
grieving over the loss of your best friend
and rightfully so. I think one day she
will know the mistake she has made and
she'll be lucky to be able to crawl back
and have you back in her life, that is if
you choose to forgive her.
I remember you saying your cat was
missing. Are you sure she was eaten, or
could she have lost her way or gone on a
walk about? My cat does that from time to
time. He'll be gone for a month. The
first time he did it I too thought he was
probably gone for good. Low and behold
there he was.
I had my dog put to sleep a few years back
and I still get weepy when I go through
pictures or see someone with a dog like
her. She was a great friend. Better than
any human friend has ever been.
I didn't know your turtle ran away. Was
he an outdoor pet?
You are certainly no monster for thinking
things were easier before the baby came
along. You hold your children in high
regards and it shows with how you speak of
them here.
How long have you been on the meds? Do
they need time to get into your system?
Girl, you need a calgon moment and a stiff
toddy!
*HUGS TO YOU*
Thanks. Maybe I should have a Vodka
bubble bath or something...
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Posted: 08-27-07 13:20pm
Im so sorry that you are going through
this right now. Unfortunately as the
saying goes when it rains it pours. I
hope you have better days ahead and you
can see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I also had a best friend that "turned" on
me while in college. It was one of the
most painful things I have ever had to go
through. But everything happens for a
reason and if you believe that then life
will go on and will be better down the
road than what you have already been
through.
Keep your chin up girlie....better days
are guaranteed to come
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sandyallen
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Posted: 08-27-07 15:45pm
I am sorry what you are going through!
sometimes we learn who our friends are the
hard way. Maybe your Dr. needs to adjust
your meds and you can always go back to
the acupuncturist more then once,
sometimes it takes a few times to get
things worked out and like Mommy 35 said
if you have just started back on your meds
it may take time for them to kick in. You
are a good mom and don't think you aren't!
I know that each time we lose our animals
it seems like a part of us goes with them.
Life has a lot of hurtles that we have to
get over and there are times that it is
very difficult to get over them, I know
this very well. You are not alone, I am
here for you, I wished we lived closer.
You really seem like such a good person!
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sillyakchick
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what??????? Posted: 08-27-07 18:58pm
It just doesn't seem to be getting any
better. I just got laid off. What the
effing hell!?
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AyaMiyaki
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Posted: 08-27-07 19:01pm
I am so sorry
sweetie!! Why does it always
seem that bad things happen all at once?
I'll keep you in my thoughts
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Posted: 08-28-07 07:34am
Oh my that is horrible news. Did you know
it was coming or did they blind side you?
I hope that you will be able to get
another job quickly with a company that
can acknowledge your worth and value. You
are a good person with a good heart, so Im
sure you will be able to move on to bigger
and better things.
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Jules
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Posted: 08-28-07 08:04am
I'm so sorry! Why does life kick you in
the proverbials like that?
I am so sorry
sweetie!! 
Why does it always
seem that bad things happen all at once?
