Its the Eve Before My Scheduled Abortion And.... Posted: 08-27-07 22:57pm
my abortion is scheduled for 7:30am
tomorrow and i am 'prairie-doggin' (for
lack of a better word.)
i was taking my bath just now and the
whole time i was thinking, "i'm not going
to do this. i'm not going. i cant go thru
with it. i'm just not, i cant. i'm not
ready yet. this is too fast. maybe i can
still do it next week. but what if i dont
do it tomorrow and then i wont have the
nerve to do it next week? am i just
chickening out? i know this is the best
decision but what if its not? i'm assuming
that i know how my parents would react and
what a strain it would be on them but i
havent told them so i dont really
know what they think, do i? what if i'm
wrong and i havent given myself enough
time to think about it?"
is this normal? does everyone get cold
feet right before?
my significant other is acting,
well...less than supportive or i should
say 'less than concerned'. i'm realizing
now that he's been a little too at ease
with all of this as if it were no big
deal. (i even have my doubts as to
whether or not he'll show up
tomorrow...i'm leaning towards 'not'.)
i guess i didnt notice until now because
we only found out barely a week ago and he
was offshore. i realize now that i need to
re-evaluate my decision and forget about
him because he is not thinking about
anyone but himself.
ok i have more i could say but i'm gonna
cut myself off here so as to allow enough
time for people to answer me (hopefully)
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Carifairy
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Posted: 08-27-07 23:25pm
If you do not want an abortion you do not
have to have one.
You should be prepared to go at raising a
child alone though.. If he is not
supportive NOW, how could he be if you
were pregnant.
Are you going to a place that offers
sedation?
Are you afraid of the pain?
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amino65
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Posted: 08-27-07 23:27pm
hi, I just thought I'd respond, so here
goes.
I had an abortion 5 months ago, and felt
just as you did. I'm 20 years old, an
honors pre-med student, I just did what
was right for me, and I won't lie to you,
it was a very difficult decision for me.
But I knew that my parents would react
badly to either scenario. I was still
living with them, they are paying for my
schooling, I love my boyfriend very much
but are not married or even engaged. If I
had kept it, I would be alienated from my
family. If they found out about the
abortion, well I don't know how they would
react, but definately they would not be
supportive or understanding (well maybe my
dad.)
Anyway, I felt just as you did the night
before, and stayed up all night with my
boyfriend discussing it, but in the end we
both felt it was the best given our
circumstances. I stayed up all night, but
once I was there at the clinic, everything
went so smoothly.
I thought from everything I had read that
it would be a bumpy day, but to tell you
the truth, it was so smooth (still hard
though). Everyone at the clinic was kind,
efficient, and I never felt rushed or
disregarded in any way.
Hopefully your boyfriend goes with you, at
least so you won't be alone. I know it was
nice having someone there with me, even
though i was in and out in only a little
over 2 hours. Maybe you should try talking
to him. My boyfriend never talks about it
to me, and I wish I could talk to him
sometimes. If you feel that you need that
from yours, speak up, it won't hurt.
Feel free to pm me if you have any
questions, and sorry for such a long post.
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think4yourself
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Posted: 08-27-07 23:56pm
shasta205
wrote:
hi, I just thought I'd
respond, so here goes.
I had an abortion 5 months ago, and felt
just as you did. I'm 20 years old, an
honors pre-med student, I just did what
was right for me, and I won't lie to you,
it was a very difficult decision for me.
But I knew that my parents would react
badly to either scenario. I was still
living with them, they are paying for my
schooling, I love my boyfriend very much
but are not married or even engaged. If I
had kept it, I would be alienated from my
family. If they found out about the
abortion, well I don't know how they would
react, but definately they would not be
supportive or understanding (well maybe my
dad.)
Anyway, I felt just as you did the night
before, and stayed up all night with my
boyfriend discussing it, but in the end we
both felt it was the best given our
circumstances. I stayed up all night, but
once I was there at the clinic, everything
went so smoothly.
I thought from everything I had read that
it would be a bumpy day, but to tell you
the truth, it was so smooth (still hard
though). Everyone at the clinic was kind,
efficient, and I never felt rushed or
disregarded in any way.
Hopefully your boyfriend goes with you, at
least so you won't be alone. I know it was
nice having someone there with me, even
though i was in and out in only a little
over 2 hours. Maybe you should try talking
to him. My boyfriend never talks about it
to me, and I wish I could talk to him
sometimes. If you feel that you need that
from yours, speak up, it won't hurt.
Feel free to pm me if you have any
questions, and sorry for such a long
post.
thank you very very very much. yes, your
situation sounds very similar to mine.
i'm actually at my best friend's house and
she will be accompanying me tomorrow. my
boyfriend will not be joining us. i guess
its times like these when you find out who
you can count on. i'll be okay, its better
i find out now than later.
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think4yourself
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Joined: 24 Aug 2007 Posts: 12 Location: Louisiana
Posted: 08-28-07 00:11am
Carifairy
wrote:
If you do not want an
abortion you do not have to have one.
You should be prepared to go at raising a
child alone though.. If he is not
supportive NOW, how could he be if you
were pregnant.
Are you going to a place that offers
sedation?
Are you afraid of the
pain?
i'm currently raising a child alone, and
while i know raising 2 alone has been done
- that doesnt make the idea any easier to
swallow. i knew while i was pregnant with
my 1st that i couldnt count on her father,
but to go into another pregnancy knowing
AGAIN that i wont be able to count on the
father is overwhelming.
yes i am afraid of the pain, and no i cant
go to one that offers sedation because he
did not come up with the money like he
said he would. within the past 12hrs, my
life has turned upside down and i no
longer have my partner to be there by my
side during what is sure to be one of the
most awful experiences in my life, nor
will he be there from this point forward.
and worst of all, i cant even turn to my
parents for support - who i've always been
able to turn to. and tomorrow evening i
have to go home to them and act like
everything is normal.
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amino65
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Posted: 08-28-07 00:17am
I'm glad you have someone to be there for
you. What a good friend. Anywho, don't
worry about your bf, maybe he just doesn't
know what to say? I'm glad you are ok
though, hope everything goes well
tomorrow.
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Carifairy
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Posted: 08-28-07 12:56pm
I am thinking about you today!!
I hope everything goes well.
It may be painful, but you have given
birth, and I know you can make it!
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think4yourself
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Thank You!!!!! Posted: 08-28-07 20:45pm
Well i did it. it went very well. in fact
i cant believe how smoothly and painless
it was! it really was nothing at
all.....*granted i did take a time
released xanax at midnight and then a
lortab right before the procedure (which
made me sick & sleepy more than
anything heh.)
but honestly, the doc & nurse were
just talking casually (to keep me
distracted) while he did the entire thing.
so i never saw the needles for the nerve
blocks and the insertion of the canula
just felt like a menstrual cramp (not even
a bad one), and the suction was nothing. i
would say everything after the nerve block
took maybe 2 minutes.
then they took all the 'utensils' out, put
my legs down, discussed birth control
& post-op instructions, and let me lay
there for a few minutes to rest. then the
nurse came back in and gave me a darvecet,
i think?. i got dressed and i was free to
go. i walked out thinking, "that was it?
pfft that was nothing!"
my best friend & i left there and went
to new orleans to go shopping, lol.
i dont regret it at all, i'm very relieved
that i got it over with and i know it was
the right decision.
my boyfriend *ahem - exboyfriend now*
waited til 6:00pm this evening to call and
"check on me" (yeah right he really just
wanted to make sure i did it), then told
me he loved me, said he had the money to
pay my friend back for the abortion (she
had to cover his butt since he backed out
last night), and he asked me if we were
really 'over'
.....i told him he could moneygram me the
money and said goodbye and hung up the
phone.
i've never felt better.
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Birch
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Posted: 08-28-07 20:53pm
Hey,
I'm glad it went well for you and I'm glad
you gave your boyfriend the boot! Best
wishes for your continued happiness...
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Tylanas
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Posted: 08-28-07 20:53pm
Oh that's great
We need more people to hear inspiring
stories like yours!
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Carifairy
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Posted: 08-28-07 22:10pm
Lortab is good stuff..
Did they give it to you, that would be
pretty cool..AT least they give you
something..
.....i told him he could moneygram me the
money and said goodbye and hung up the
phone.
