When I have the worst vocabulary known to
existence, difficulty thinking of the
right words to say and putting them
together (especially when speaking, which
is why I don't engage in much
conversations, but also when typing as
well. Even if I do get it right, it takes
a long time!), EXTREMELY horrid math
skills and the inability to solve simple
math problems at the top of my head, I
basically messed up my life. These
vocabulary and math skills (among a whole
lot of other aspects of intelligences, but
I'll get to that later) are sooooo bad,
that I don't know if they can ever be
fixed! I don't know if you know the extent
of how bad they are...
The most successful people in life are
that way because they know how to actually
socialize and communicate as they have
really good vocabulary and math skills, so
they will know what they're saying and
doing to interact. If not, they're gonna
be walked over. My vocabulary and math
skills are sooooo bad, that I don't know
if it could ever be fixed, which I believe
will be my downfall because people like me
won't save as no one can wait for people
like me.
I couldn't even subtract $1.90 from $3.17
at the top of my head; all I could've done
was subtract $2.00 to get $1.17 and add 10
cents to get $1.27, but these simple ideas
won't come to me when I need them.
Obviously, everyone's gonna make mistakes,
but the mistakes I make are potentially
life-damaging since they happen waaaay too
often. And it's not like I actually know
the things either, so it's not only like I
don't know the solution; I don't know the
math either!
I'm not lying when I say there are
sooooooo many words I don't know that I
should've learned by now. Infact, words I
should've learned a looooong time ago!
Infact, simple words like (from the top of
my head), "inauguration", "bonifide",
"Baydestrian", "predicate", "resonate",
etc. Words I previously didn't know that I
learned recently are, "elipsis",
"agnostic", "instigate", etc. A LOT of the
time I look for a synonym for a word or
phrase or whatever (and I'm often only
IMAGINING the conversations in my mind as
if I'm trying to PREPARE what I'm trying
to say (even if the conversation will
never happen!); I'm not exactly speaking
anything!), it just won't pop up in my
brain, no matter how simple the word is. I
can just easily forget words. I even
forgot what a pronoun, adverb (Well, is it
something like "she"?), adjective and etc.
mean now after reading the definitions
more than once! I also don't even know how
to spell a lot of words. I feel soooo
unintelligent!
How am I supposed to do the more advanced
problems and even branch out into Science,
Politics, Philosophy, etc., if I don't
know these two important aspects of
intelligence? I believe that you need to
know your vocabulary and math to know what
you're saying and doing in all the other
fields. How am I supposed to be the person
I desire and get people to like me?! I
can't even talk with people, so I feel
lonely! I might as well die if I can't
live life to the fullest and also
contribute! I also feel guilty for
that...
Please. I need help. Any helpful advice is
welcomed. Thanks a lot.
