Stressed and worried! Please Help! Posted: 09-06-07 09:00am
Hi everyone,
Im new to this site and id like to know if
anyones knows whats happening to me?
Right, here goes....
Im female, 22. My dad Committed Suicide 3
years ago and since then and have lost 3
other members of my family/friends, all
were horrible deaths.
Although i feel like im moving on i feel
parts of me are not.
I worry about the stupidest things, and
worry about them to the point that i dont
eat, although i want to eat i just cant
seem to. At present i havnt eaten for 4
days. I mainly worry about my partner,
'does he love me' 'is he looking at porn
at work' 'is he chatting to girls' 'does
he still find me attractive'. And although
i have been with him for 8 years (since i
was 14) and he has made some real life
changes to keep me happy, i still panic
everyday about what hes doing. He very
openly told me the other day something
personal that he used to do that all men
do in there lives and it really threw me.
I just couldnt get my head round it, i
cried about it for days. I never used to
be like this. He loves me so much and i
love him so why am i not happy, and
terrified of him looking at other girls. I
stress about my mum loads as well, shes
been through so much these last few years
i wish i could take all the pain away but
i cant, i cant let it go more than a week
without seeing her as i worry she may be
upset.
I think really bad thoughts about myself
and other people and it doesnt seem normal
to me. I can honestly say i dont how im
feeling right now, Just lost.
Thanks for reading
Katx
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metalcrystal
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Apr 2007 Posts: 112 Location: most boring state, USA,
Re: Please Help Me Posted: 09-06-07 12:26pm
kkatrobinson
wrote:
Hi everyone,
Im new to this site and id like to know if
anyones knows whats happening to me?
Right, here goes....
Im female, 22. My dad Committed Suicide 3
years ago and since then and have lost 3
other members of my family/friends, all
were horrible deaths.
Although i feel like im moving on i feel
parts of me are not.
I worry about the stupidest things, and
worry about them to the point that i dont
eat, although i want to eat i just cant
seem to. At present i havnt eaten for 4
days. I mainly worry about my partner,
'does he love me' 'is he looking at porn
at work' 'is he chatting to girls' 'does
he still find me attractive'. And although
i have been with him for 8 years (since i
was 14) and he has made some real life
changes to keep me happy, i still panic
everyday about what hes doing. He very
openly told me the other day something
personal that he used to do that all men
do in there lives and it really threw me.
I just couldnt get my head round it, i
cried about it for days. I never used to
be like this. He loves me so much and i
love him so why am i not happy, and
terrified of him looking at other girls. I
stress about my mum loads as well, shes
been through so much these last few years
i wish i could take all the pain away but
i cant, i cant let it go more than a week
without seeing her as i worry she may be
upset.
I think really bad thoughts about myself
and other people and it doesnt seem normal
to me. I can honestly say i dont how im
feeling right now, Just lost.
Thanks for reading
Katx
hi Kat, You are irrationaly worrying
about stuff, it is a worry disorder or
Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Can you talk
to your regular doctor, they can suggest
meds or a therapist, Your worries are
exaggerated, even tho you have been thru a
lot to cause this, you shouldn't have to
always be worrying and never happy. After
your hard times you deserve happiness, go
get this treated. Crystal
