yes it is hard to find your own way in
life and it needs time energy and istead
we spend it on some food thinking: eat or
not to eat.
this is a shame.
i am doing better now. I binge when i
achieve my best weight, i say to myself: i
am already hier why dont i let myself go
today. the other reason is pms.
alltogether is binging at least once a
week. and the result a constant food
watching. But this is better than bulimia
i suffered from.
So i have more time to arrange my life,
but the worst thing is that i have not
much drive to do so. i am motivated but
have a lack of discipline, i think i have
spent too much energy on strugle with
anorexia/bulimia and now have less energy
to go for my dreams.
best
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Food Thinking Posted: 09-17-07 04:53am
I am no more thinking of food, I am back
to anorexia,
Is it my choice or a destiny I dont know,
but with anorexia I feel safe, it is
better to me than binge/diet,
binge/laxative /purge.
I have time work and devote myself to the
things I am interested in . my mind is no
more food dominate
It is abnormal, but I can not do anything
with myself
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Food Thinking Posted: 09-17-07 06:05am
bibisim
wrote:
I am no more thinking of
food, I am back to anorexia,
Is it my choice or a destiny I dont know,
but with anorexia I feel safe, it is
better to me than binge/diet,
binge/laxative /purge.
I have time work and devote myself to the
things I am interested in . my mind is no
more food dominate
It is abnormal, but I can not do anything
with myself
Now
I think i was not so much food thinking as
my aboby shape watching. I got to the
point I say it is enough. I am not a doll,
I am a person and there are so many
interesting things in life u can do, so
many hungry and and unhappy.....and I have
spent so much time on weight watching and
ED.
Now I let myself be as it was meant to be,
if I am anorexic, (I became anorexic with
16 and even earlier), so what can I do???
this no good for me but at least I shall
devote myself to the things I have always
wanted to. I wonna make a difference in
life , thinking of your body solely u
never reach the horison, i believe so
best
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Food Thinking Posted: 09-24-07 03:18am
bibisim
wrote:
I am no more thinking of
food, I am back to anorexia,
Is it my choice or a destiny I dont know,
but with anorexia I feel safe, it is
better to me than binge/diet,
binge/laxative /purge.
I have time work and devote myself to the
things I am interested in . my mind is no
more food dominate
It is abnormal, but I can not do anything
with myself
I have had a very interesting experience
for a few days. I was a guest to my
friends home, so we had all three meals
together at one and the same time for a
few days. I have noticed, that more I
followed this plan the less I had any
feeling of ED. now, looking back to the
experience I realize:
WHEN U KNOW U SHALL EAT 3 TIMES A DAY AT
DISTINGUISHED TIME, U DONT BOTHER TO HAVE
ANY THOUGHTS ABOUT EATING. EAT DISCIPLINED,
DONT MISS MEALTIMES
Now
I think i was not so much food thinking as
my aboby shape watching. I got to the
point I say it is enough. I am not a doll,
I am a person and there are so many
interesting things in life u can do, so
many hungry and and unhappy.....and I have
spent so much time on weight watching and
ED.
EAT DISCIPLINED,
DONT MISS MEALTIMES 