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ThriftyGal
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Joined: 21 Apr 2006
Posts: 2982
Location: Ontario, Canada
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Don't Poop Where You Eat
Posted: 09-12-07 23:36pm
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My life is a mess.
The thing is I know it could be really
good, and I can make it such, but it's
impossible with my mothers manipulative
posion sucking my life energy. Anyways, I
left today because it got really bad
today. I'm just staying with Erik's
mom... which isn't ideal. So I was
weighing my options, which was drop out of
school so that I can work full time and
live on my own or go back to stay with my
dad (in which case I would screw up what
I've done so far of the school year too,
but I could have caught up). In order to
be able to finish school I have to rely on
my parents to help me until I do, which
isn't possible with a psychotic mother. I
feel like I've got no one I can reply on.
Anyways, I told Nathan that I would
probably be leaving and he suggested we
find a two bedroom, after offering for me
to live with his family (which I obviously
passed up). Mostly I'm touched that he
cares so much, he's really a swell swell
guy.
I have a chemistry test tomorrow and I
didn't get any work done for studying
because I spent hours locked in the
bathroom with Rowan running the water so
that we didn't have to hear my mom going
crazy and screaming in the rest of the
house, in which time she unplugged all the
phones so that I couldn't call anyone to
leave. Me and Rowan played with her bath
toys on the floor and I sang her songs and
that ontop of the water made it so we
didn't have to hear all of my moms
screaming, except when the crazy woman
came to the bathroom door to sing the
songs with me. : | I swear, I wish
sometimes she would just kill herself so
that I'd never have to have anything to do
with her again.
Wish me luck with me and Nathan finding a
place. After we do my mother is not going
to see me again. If she can prove herself
capable of acting more acceptable she
would be able to have Rowan visit once in
a while. (She's an okay grandmother, just
a psycho psycho mother).
Here is a picture Nathan drew of me in a
cat mask... I don't wear cat masks, but
it's ghost world style and I love it.
: )
thanks for listening. I need to review as
much of my chemistry that I can before I
pass out. I have negative energy right
now but mostly I'm just trying to keep
positive because my attitude is really all
I've got going for me now.
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sick_mama17
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jun 2007
Posts: 960
Location: , England
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Posted: 09-13-07 00:58am
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Why does she go round the house screaming?
Living with your dad sounds like a good
option, is he supportive and will he help
you? It would probably be easier for you
financially if you moved in with your dad.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 09-13-07 01:00am
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wow, that picture is great and it actually
looks a lot like you!
im sorry that your mom is so crazy, it
sounds really scary that she was screaming
and cussing and you had to go to the
bathroom. You're such a great mother that
you'd lock yourself in there and sing to
rowan so that she didn't have to
experience that.
I really hope you get your own place soon
tanya!
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amethyst eyes
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Joined: 04 Nov 2006
Posts: 1339
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Posted: 09-13-07 01:03am
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I am so sorry you have to go through all
that. I hope everything works out for the
best and just know that no matter what you
are a great person and mother.
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Becky
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Posted: 09-13-07 03:03am
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jeez i'm sorry you have to live in that
situation. i really hope you get on your
feet soon. your boyfriend sounds really
lovely and i hope you guys get to move in
and be a family. the drawing is so cute
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SamanthaM
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Posted: 09-13-07 07:26am
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Your mom sounds like a psycho, but I
already know that from other stuff you've
told me. I love you and Rowan, I wish you
lived in the states. I would help you out.
That picture is great.. I wish I could
draw. I'm going to try to get on mesn
today, if I get the time. Anyway I think
Ethan is waking up so I'll talk to you
later.
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Mommy35
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Joined: 23 Sep 2006
Posts: 3165
Location: Vacationland, USA,
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Posted: 09-13-07 08:19am
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You are a great mother!!!!! I couldn't
imagine living with that.
The picture is great! I hope you got some
studying done. You should be so proud of
yourself for making such a nice life for
Rowan and working hard in school. Anytime
you get down, pat yourself on the back and
know that you are giving your baby girl a
better life than you had.
*HUGZ*
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yellow ribbon
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Joined: 07 Dec 2005
Posts: 5554
Location: FL
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Posted: 09-13-07 08:26am
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i love that picture nathan drew its so
great! looks like u only a little darker.
Your mother sounds like she needs so meds
its good you dont take ne of your
parenting skills from that psyhco. I hope
you can ge things worked out where you can
finish your school too. How much longer do
you have?
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Backwerds_jibberslang
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Sep 2007
Posts: 62
Location: my bosses house
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Posted: 09-13-07 08:34am
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you know, moving in with him doesn't sound
so bad. I think that woudl be your best
option. You would get to stay in school
and not be stressed and feel like you
can't do anything because your psycho mom
is all up your (_)_) and plus you wuold
have some help. You sdaid that nathan
likes your daughter and obviously he knows
that comes with responsibility.Thats a
good guy!
I need a roomate  I'm
planning on moving in with Derik too but
in a month or 2 but not for the same
reasons. I really hope things work out
tanya. What is your moms problem?
and I gotta say, that picture is cool!
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Bridget
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Posted: 09-13-07 08:42am
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i'm sorry your mother acts like that. i
forget why you moved back there?
good luck finding a place with nathan, he
sounds like a great guy and you're lucky
to have him (and he's lucky to have you!).
i hope everything works out because you
definitely deserve it.
good luck on your test!
we love you, tanya!
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mc4ever02
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Posted: 09-13-07 08:54am
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I'm sorry that you have to go though all
of this. I wish you were closer and you
could just come stay with me. (there are
so many people in the house no one would
notice.  ) I do have
to say that I think that dropping out
should be a last resort. I know, you know
that, I just have to go on record.
I thought when you left your dad you were
on good terms. Am I wrong? I don't
remember very clearly the situation.
I think Nathan sounds like a pretty nice
guy. Do you think you guys would get along
if you lived together? That is a lot of
pressure.
I hope your chem tests went well.
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sillyakchick
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Posted: 09-13-07 15:21pm
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Tanya I am so sorry that you are going
through this right now. I know that you
will figure a way out of this and get
yourself in a peaceful place. I don't
know what i would do if my Mom Acted that
way...run and hide? Get a firehose?
Mace? I dunno, but that certainly seems a
health forum and mental, if you don't mind
my saying so. Is there a place you could
go-a women's shelter or anything safe that
would get you out of such an awful
situation with your mother? I worry about
the stress she is putting on you and the
bizarre spectacel she is putting on in
front of your daughter. God, It's just
not fair!!! You can come live with me. I
am working ona game plan for that bakery
and cafe... 
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ThriftyGal
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Apr 2006
Posts: 2982
Location: Ontario, Canada
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Posted: 09-13-07 21:37pm
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Thanks you guys for all your support! I
read through everything but I forget all
the questions and will go through and
answer them later.
I put a plan into action today. I went
out and handed out resumes, I have a job
interview on Sunday. Only at my favourite
place in the world! Value Village. And I
have an appointment tomorrow with a
guidance counselor at school to help make
sure I'm only doing the courses I need to
go into nursing, and not doing extra
because right now I just need to focus on
doing what I absolutely need to. And then
we are going to see if we can switch me
over to studying from home. This way I am
going to stay home in the day with Rowan
instead of having her at daycare, and work
on my school work during that time, and go
to work in the evenings after Erik's mom
gets home from work (she's a teacher). I
am also going to put an ad in the news
paper to see if I can watch someone's
child during the day while I am home with
me and Rowan.
I'm going to be the change I want for my
future, and I'm proud of myself because I
got a lot done today on that path. Handed
out resumes, got a job interview, made an
appointment with the school so that I can
figure out a way to make my schooling work
without spending hours there a day, and
wrote done tons of two bedroom apartment
numbers to call during the day tomorrow,
cause me and Nathan are going to do the
living together thing.
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Sandbox Party
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Posted: 09-13-07 21:41pm
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aww im proud of you! And im glad u got ur
living situation figured out.. trust me...
i know what it feels like to be in a place
where life is a living HELL.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 09-13-07 21:50pm
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Tanya, I am SO proud of you and I hope you
get that job at value village, that'd be
so awesome, i know how much you love it!
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michelle1981
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Posted: 09-13-07 21:55pm
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I'm so sorry that you are going through
this Tanya. I admire you greatly, and know
that you are such a fantastic mother. I
don't really know why your mother is
behaving the way she is towards you, but
you are soooo much better than that. Thank
god you have some other options out there
for you & Rowan.
If I can do anything for you, please don't
hesitate to ask.
Remember, what doesn't kill us only makes
us stronger
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sick_mama17
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jun 2007
Posts: 960
Location: , England
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Posted: 09-14-07 00:56am
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Good for you getting things moving  Im not trying to be
a downer but how are you going to do all
your studying WHILE taking care of Rowan
during the day? and maybe someone elses
baby too.
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Willa Weintraub
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Posted: 09-14-07 06:08am
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yay! I'm glad you accomplished so much,
thats really great!
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sillyakchick
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Posted: 09-14-07 08:50am
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You put a plan into action, and you got
results! That's awesome. I believe if
you keep the positive visioin, you will
acheive what you want. Can't never did
anything! Let me know if there is anyway
I can help at all. Review resumes, etc.
I am happy to help you!
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