Today is my day. yesterday I was feeling
energized too. As I wrote I have let my ED
go. I have admitted I am not normall
(whatever this may mean in connection to
meals) and stopped the struggle.
My only principle is : ED shall not make
me purge or take laxatives any more.
Now I feel free of tension, and guess,
notice my situation is not as dramatic as
I suggested. I was afraid to starve myself
to death, but guess, I was out yeasterday
and I had icecreme cocktail and a salad.
My friend ate ,so would I seat there just
watching?!
this forum helps me to realize that I am
not doing as bad as I expected
my advice: let the
stress from ED go. If u are ED, so it is.
just dont kill yourself with purgeing and
laxatives. if u never eat go out, learn
cooking for ur family and friends. If u r
going to binge, binge healthiest food and
enjoy the taste, couse u r not going to
purge/laxative, beacause this food is good
for ur body.
best
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Ed Girl Diary 1 Posted: 09-20-07 01:46am
Today is my day again
yesterday , at night, while watching a
movie my friend suggested have a bar of
chocolate. I brought it from the kitchen
but at first refused to have a portion of
it, myself following my inner anorexic
voice. later I shared a portion with my
friend.
I am somewhat loosing weight, but I am not
starving myself as u see, yesterday I had
salad and musli yougurt as well. Thus I am
in moderation/
let the tension go.
u can not do much about ur anorexia or
bulimia. let the distructive ideas flow
their own way, but u yourself manage ur
day in ur own way, which is making clever
decisions.
best
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Ed Girl Diary 1 Posted: 09-21-07 01:07am
Today is my day again
I am happy to have my life back, in
particular the feeling of the purpose, why
I am here and what I want to accomlish in
life, and believe me counting calories and
food thinking is the least I want to
devote my life to.
I believe that all of u in the forum are
challenged with better and are
intelligent----people suffering from ED
are never ingnorant!!!
U deserve the
better life, let the tension of
Bulimia/Anorexia go and do what u wonna do
in life today, right now, whatever ur size
and the picture in the mirrow may be!!!
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Ed Girl Diary 1 Posted: 09-25-07 02:08am
Hello dear all,
lot of us here know much about how to
recover, but so little u can see the
success stories? what is wrong with us???
best
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v00d00cita
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Good Posted: 09-29-07 06:53am
Hi,
This public diary thing sounds like a nice
idea to me. How are you feeling after this
writing? Don't be too hard on yourself,
you seem to be doing good progress.
Besides, you are helping other people!
If there's anything else I can do, just
let me know!
Cheers
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Good Posted: 10-01-07 03:16am
v00d00cita
wrote:
Hi,
This public diary thing sounds like a nice
idea to me. How are you feeling after this
writing? Don't be too hard on yourself,
you seem to be doing good progress.
Besides, you are helping other people!
If there's anything else I can do, just
let me know!
Cheers
Hi Voodoocita,
thank u for nice words. I am glad to hear
that the diary is a help to smone. i mean
everyone from our community can write down hier
her day experiencies. yes it is helpful to
write about the day, everyday we learn
smth and we could share the advices.
I am doing better but i am not recovered
. U know, I think it
is a misleading thing to believe life is
just beautiful and joy and etc. life is so
in a few ways, but overall it is hard, and
u have to be harder to get through. noone
loves to remember this but this is the way
it works out.
How are u getting along?
best
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Good Posted: 10-02-07 04:30am
Hello dear friends.
I was just thinking, how distracting an ed
can be in relation to personal growth, it
cost so much time, I have a guilt
feeling.
I have spent so much time on ED and am
still spending.
On the other hand, -------------may ed be
a get away from reall tasks, a rescue from
ur dreams, that are great and beautiful?
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Good Posted: 10-11-07 08:16am
Hi friends,
I believe i have figured out a great point
for my eating plan. this is not eating
after 6 pm. few days ago i have binged at
the lunch time, so to balance i ommited
the dinner, and i felt great the next
day.
I am the one who chooses to be original
so a grandmother recipe for beauty : leave
ur late dinner for ur enemy -had not
convinced me in my teens. during my
anorexia, i used to go without eating all
day and had some fruit before going to
bed. Now have discovered this principle
for myself.
it is hard to get
used to -no meal after 6 pm ,- but it is
the best thing u can do for urself if u
tend to loose ur control while eating and
during emotional eating. evenings are most
dangerous for these reasons.
Now since i know it is good i shall try to
follow it i hope it works for
me.
my advice: let the
stress from ED go. If u are ED, so it is.
just dont kill yourself with purgeing and
laxatives. if u never eat go out, learn
cooking for ur family and friends. If u r
going to binge, binge healthiest food and
enjoy the taste, couse u r not going to
purge/laxative, beacause this food is good
for ur body.
let the tension go.
u can not do much about ur anorexia or
bulimia. let the distructive ideas flow
their own way, but u yourself manage ur
day in ur own way, which is making clever
decisions.
. U know, I think it
is a misleading thing to believe life is
just beautiful and joy and etc. life is so
in a few ways, but overall it is hard, and
u have to be harder to get through. noone
loves to remember this but this is the way
it works out.
