Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 10 Location: , New Zealand
Am I bipolar or not? What's causing strange emotional state? Posted: 10-07-07 03:06am
Do I have bipolar?
I've been confused for years, having been
through a tough childhood.
I have attempted suicide once, with the
most recent being late last year,
resulting in cardiac arrest and a week in
hospital.
I feel paranoid, argumentative. I have
moods that change from severely depressed,
not wanting to shower/get out of bed/etc,
to euphoric, very happy and helpful.
Depression is rife in both sides of my
family, with my father and mother both
suffering, plus many aunties, my
grandmother, and several cousins.
I have not been diagnosed with anything,
as I tend to put my pride and cynical
nature first, passing every attempt to get
me a psychiatrist off.
Also, last year I was involved in a very
serious car accident, resulting in Post
Concussion Syndrome. This has affected my
speech, mood, etc.
I have felt like I do for long before the
accident, however, and often feel I can
relate to Bipolar sufferers.
I have also had a long history of theft,
starting from when I was very young, even
when I had plenty of money :S.
I have also had extreme outbursts of
anger, doing things like smashing my mum
up against the doorway, smashing a chair
on a mans chest, etc.
I feel out of control when my anger takes
over, like I've been taken over, however
cliche that sounds .
I apologise for the stilted format to this
topic, I just don't know where to start
I would appreciate feedback on whether I'm
Bipolar or not, also if you feel I'm not,
what you put my feelings down to.
I understand many of you are not doctors
or psychologists/psychiatrists. But I do
know that many of you are affected by
Bipolar, or have family members who are.
Please help.
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Monket
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 10 Location: , New Zealand
Posted: 10-07-07 06:10am
I also have a fear of meeting new people.
I would rather stay at home and watch a
movie with my partner than go out to a
party or meet anyone new.
I feel when I do meet new people face to
face I am unsociable, and keep to myself
rather than open up and talk.
I do not know if this is related, but I
have no problem with meeting adults. I
feel I can converse more easily with
adults rather than my peers and see my
peers behaviours as stupid and immature.
I have just recently turned 17.
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Monket
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 10 Location: , New Zealand
Posted: 10-07-07 19:57pm
It would be nice if someone commented...
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abnrmlmind
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 55
Posted: 10-07-07 21:14pm
i kept a diary, i will show you if you
want to see it. it goes back to when i
was first diagnosed. i didnt get
diagnosed till i started taking lexapro
prescribed by my family doctor when i was
17. shortly there after i hit rock bottom
and flipped my lid. ive been in rehab 2
times and gotten into enough trouble. dont
take this the wrong way but from what
youve said it could be possible you lack
discipline, respect, and self control.
from the comment you posted earlier to
phillies and the comment here now it seems
your impatient and all knowing. it popped
in my mind that you werent bp and perhaps
young. you should really see a councelor
and doctor if you think you have issues
that need to be worked out. sometimes
pride isnt pride, its ignorance.
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Mommy35
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Sep 2006 Posts: 3165 Location: Vacationland, USA,
Posted: 10-07-07 21:29pm
We are not doctors and I'm sure most of us
are not qualified to diagnose you with a
mental illness. You should go talk to
your family doctor and discuss your
symptoms with him/her. If they feel it's
appropriate they will prescribe you
medications or refer you to a
psychiatrist.
From what you explain it sounds more like
you have an issue with anger more than Bi
Polar disorder. You should probably learn
to control your temper a bit. Just an
opinion, but I would be more likely to
lean towards ODD (Oppositional Defiant
Disorder) than Bi Polar disorder.
Do you use illegal drugs?
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Monket
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 10 Location: , New Zealand
Posted: 10-08-07 04:19am
Do you use illegal drugs?
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*laughs*
Oh dear.
No, far from it.
I won't touch drugs or even alcohol most
of the time. I despise drugs.
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Monket
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 10 Location: , New Zealand
Posted: 10-08-07 04:24am
in reply to abnrmlmind:
I also saw your reply to phillies and was
severely disappointed.
He should look out for himself, but be
careful in not upsetting his partner.
After all, shes not in a great space.
I respect your opinions, I really do.
Its just, you are both assuming I am
immature, a drug taker and have anger
issues.
What I probably should have mentioned is
that I don't party, I don't drink, I don't
take drugs.
A lot of my friends think I'm boring, as
I'd rather stay at home than go out.
I've never thought I was extremely
bipolar, at all.
Just many things on this forum have
related directly to things I have felt/do
feel.
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Mommy35
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Sep 2006 Posts: 3165 Location: Vacationland, USA,
Posted: 10-08-07 08:11am
Monket
wrote:
I respect your opinions, I really do.
Its just, you are both assuming I am
immature, a drug taker and have anger
issues.
I never assumed you are a drug taker. I
was simply asking a question. You said:
"I have also had extreme outbursts of
anger, doing things like smashing my mum
up against the doorway, smashing a chair
on a mans chest, etc.
I feel out of control when my anger takes
over, like I've been taken over, however
cliche that sounds".
That is why we come to think you have
anger issues.
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abnrmlmind
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Oct 2007 Posts: 55
Posted: 10-08-07 14:42pm
Nooo i dont think your immature or that
you take drugs. i was 17 at one point too.
drug use is common with bpd as self
medication. just because you dont want to
go out doesnt mean anything either, you
can have just as much fun at home than
anywhere else. i was making a observation
and explaining what i thought.
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mrsbuzski
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2007 Posts: 103 Location: U.S.A. -- Illinois
Psychology Posted: 10-11-07 00:58am
I think you all are fine!
Like the old song goes, "Don't, Worry!,
Be, Happy".
Seriously, arn't we all out of our minds
at one time or another?
I have a problem with expressing my
feelings too. I sometimes tend to resort
to loud, obscense, angry outbursts.
But, for crying out loud, sometimes that's
what it takes for us to reach that state
of equilibrium!
Then.....we beat ourselves up for it!
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mrsbuzski
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2007 Posts: 103 Location: U.S.A. -- Illinois
I Take That Back Posted: 10-16-07 00:00am
Well Monket, I apologise for not reading
your post with a straight mind. After
rereading your question I think it might
be of benefit for you to seek some type of
counseling. Anger is bad, no matter which
way we look at it; but the, "feeling
paranoid and suicide part", although may
not signify bipolar but, defiantley
warrants talking to some type of
professional that could help you sort
things out. Take care!
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daffodil67
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Nov 2007 Posts: 54 Location: , midsouth, usa (think presidential pair)
Posted: 11-03-07 21:09pm
We are not ALL fine...Nor should we look
to an e forum for psychiatric diagnoses.
It sounds to me that you do have some
significant problems. I have seen several
references on this board to problems with
anger...I'm not too sure what this is
about. But as mrsbuzski said, anger can
be a real problem. And if you have had
had the bad anger problems since being a
kid, it COULD be ODD as someone else
mentioned...(which I really only mention
because there ARE problems people have
where anger is a symptom.)
So, see a doctor if you can if this is a
real problem for you (normally defined as
getting in the way of normal functioning.)
You also might check the NIMH web site
and NAMI. They are two of the main
American resources for info on mental
health (I have NO idea what is available
in NZ!!!)