abnrmlmind
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Looking to Share Bipolar Thoughts w/Someone
Posted: 10-07-07 14:23pm
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its really hard for me to say anything
because i become so dull and stumped when
i compile everything in my head. so i just
ramble. i get called unique and crazy
constantly. i write what i feel in music
and poems. sometimes its odd and sometimes
it receives compliments. it just depends
on how i feel. which i feel like im
wondering now. i just want to talk and
talk someones ear off. the only problem no
one cares to listen. because i draw blank
page with everyone else that doesnt
understand that i clearly dont function
like they do. i hate therapy, i hate
antipsychotics, and antidepressants make
things so hard to do. im looking for
people to just ramble on to and show my
work, compare to. ive got 180 pages of
rambling just let me know.
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-11-07 00:38am
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or we can share.... i just want to compare
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mrsbuzski
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My Theory....
Posted: 10-11-07 01:37am
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Frankly I think the definition of Bipolar
is totally open ended. If you think about
all the spheres of the mind, and then
there is this one little catagorization of
it, "Bipolar"?!?
I would, if I were you essentuate on the
positive. You sound like you could!
Do what you can with what you''ve got!
We've all got a history to tell! Right?
That, is what we all have to get past!!!
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Birch
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Posted: 10-11-07 18:26pm
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I would personally love to
read your "ramblings".
I don't have anything to share, and I'm
not bp, but I am very interested.
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BoneyardDiva
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Posted: 10-11-07 22:32pm
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My bipolar husband is an amazing poet
& prose writer. I'm sure your
"ramblings" are perfectly coherent and I'm
sure they're well thought out. Should you
care to forward something in a PM, that's
groovy.
BYD
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 13:58pm
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Im having troubles with the pm my aol
instant messanger s/n is abnrmlmind and i
have to add you to my buddy list for you
to be able to see me... either post it or
try and pm me but i cant promise ill get
the pm
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Birch
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Posted: 10-15-07 14:35pm
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Why not just post them on the forum? You
might get more feedback that way.
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 14:45pm
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some of its personal and some of it is
something i would not like to brodcast
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 14:49pm
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that and i dont think that this is really
the right place...
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 15:00pm
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why do i bother..........
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 15:10pm
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dragged into the deepest feeling
only to let go
help me find my way
cause im so alone so alone...alone
long gone
inside these weak bones
feel the beating of my heart
knowing its there
its pulling me apart
my mouth has surrendered
to the empty thoughts in mind
the only thing against me
happens to be father time
but what if tomorrow never arrives
that is what keeps me up at night
the simpathy of love is keeping me alive
am i the only one living in a strive
tears fall down my face in the dark
because no one should see me cry
im looking for the answers
all i find are lies
shot down by my decisions
kept back and cover my eyes
is this punishment
for the way i live my life
THERE & NO ONE STEAL IT
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WShep
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Posted: 10-15-07 16:35pm
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Thanks for posting that Abn. I reread it
a few times. Sadly I have no experiences
of my own to share, but I can see a lot of
myself in what you write.
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 16:52pm
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i am influenced by my surroundings
drowned by my thoughts and feelings
i am deafened by my mind
my future still awaits me
and my past,it has been left behind
the world has grown to hate me
its seems life is starting to unwind
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 16:54pm
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you were someone i once knew
now i dont know whats got into you
your thoughts are all in a jumble and just
out of place
and you constantly have a confused look on
your face
it nothing
you'll reply
but obviously
thats just a lie
cast down upon this hollow heart and
notice we are all in the dark
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 17:15pm
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| mrsbuzski
wrote: | Frankly I think the
definition of Bipolar is totally open
ended. If you think about all the spheres
of the mind, and then there is this one
little catagorization of it, "Bipolar"?!?
I would, if I were you essentuate on the
positive. You sound like you could!
Do what you can with what you''ve got!
We've all got a history to tell! Right?
That, is what we all have to get
past!!! |
HIPPIE! be positive be positive be
positive, the world is what you make of
it. youre theory is about as bad as
stephen hawkings on black holes. i manage
just fine and i make do with whats going
on. i just hate TRYING TO UNDERSTAND
OTHERS
my theory is you know nothing....
and why did you even post, it has nothing
really to do with what i was talking
about. "Frankly I think the definition of
Bipolar is totally open ended." good job
sherlock im sure no one with a phd
realized that and you'll be the next nobel
prize winner. "catagorization" what are
you talking about.."spheres of the mind"
its our way of trying to fix things.
everything in life is catagorized. i
simple just think.. 1 you definitly dont
have bpd 2 you believe in taking vitamins
eating great and you probably have a
hybrid if you can afford it.
do not HELP when it is not asked do not
COMMENT when not needed and when you do
comment make sure its more inspirational
and down to earth
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-15-07 23:45pm
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out of all the people that are here......
i made it so anyone can contact me now
abnrmlmind on AIM not sure how many are
up at the moment but im going through a NO
sleep stage. so i should be there
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abnrmlmind
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Posted: 10-16-07 01:27am
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obsessive compulsive disoriented YOU CANT
FEEL THE HATE THAT IT BRINGS. ALL THE
PRESSURE. WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY. confused
TAKE IT ALL AWAY. MY MIND IS LOCKED IN
OVERTIME. manic COME DOWN. warm blood I
DIDNT MIND. THINGS ARENT GREAT. iTS ALL
THE THINGS IN MY BRAIN THAT BRINGS OUT MY
VIOLENT SIDE. ITS MESSIN WITH MY HEAD. IT
JUST ISNT THE SAME. paranoid DOWN WITH IT
ALL. TAKE IT ALL OUT. WALK IT OFF. TOO
LONELY NOW. depressed ALL THE CONSEQUENCE.
IM LEFT ALONE. anGEr IM THE NEW REVOLUTION
BECAUSE IM SO GREEDY. HERES WHATS NOT
UNDERSTANDING. SCREAMING IN SILENCE. LEAVE
ME BE LET ME BLEED. IVE FIGURED OUT WHAT
IT IS. tHE CHOICE IS MINE. mINE ALONE. I
NEVER WANTED IT TO HAPPEN I JUST WANTED TO
BE EVERYTHING. wATCH THEM BLEED BLEED
MOTHER BLEED. YOU DEMENTED DEMENTED
DEMENTED DEMENTED . sadated SEIZE the
MOMENT AND KILL IT KILL IT GOOD. HATE ME
HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME HATE ME
HATE ME HATE ME HATE
ME HATE ME HATE ME. yOU WOULD BUILD ME UP
AND LET ME DOWN CHEW ME UP AND SPIT ME OUT
AND IM JUST WONDERING SON OF A mY MIND
JUST COLLASPED sCREAMING AGONIZING FEELING
EVEEERY LITTLE EMOTION FEED BACK ISNT
POSSIBLE. ITS SO DOWN AND IT WONT SHAKE.
ssee ME IM SO SCARY. I HAD NOTHING
NOTHIING AT ALL I DONT FEEL GOOD I DONT
FEEL IT ANYMORE
anti depressants and bpd i edited a lot
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