Family Relationships Forum - Can a Single Guy Adopt a Girl(s)?

Hi...just to let you know about myself:

-I am 18 years old
-My testicles and penis have not developed fully
-2% of my sperms are alive
-I have no erections, only weak soft ones
-My body is grotesquely out of proportion

Now after all these problems, I will never date or love a woman. You must understand why...If I am cured god blessing...I will date and adopt...if not...then I will never date but I will still adopt...I have never touched a girl sexually or in a loving manner...

Now my problem is clear and on top due to my hormones I have masculine and feminine brain...which is more depressing...I feel trapped in between...

Now due to my hormones I have a rare condition which makes me want to nurture and love children, more so than a woman...(Please I am here to only hear from caring, passionate, open minded and logical people...I do not want traditional narrow minded people telling me a man cannot nurture children).

I am very good with kids, on my street there are children, boys and girls, and I talk to them and play with them. I am very relaxed and an open person, and their parents know me...of course who will be stupid enough to go with a random child lol...

Anyhow, considering my problems what else can I do in life? I know what I can do:

-Work in my education (in hope I can provide financial support for my adopted kids...)
-Training (boxing and swordsmanship) to help pass time
-Find a logical step for people like me to help them and to scrutinise the NHS for poor doctors and caring...(it is about time the doctors get some criticism)
-And to fight an evil ideology that is spreading on this world...

This is my life...if I am not cured...

Now I want people to realsie me and who I am, and I do not want to hear perverted sick jokes...

I want to adopt 2-3 girls...so I can love them and bring them happiness...I have so many plans on how to raise them, in a fun and creative way...so they can see me as a friend, a father and a mother. It is a sweet relationship, of a father and daughter...any man here knows what I mean?

I am an Indian, but I want to adopt white girls. Please do not fall to perverted talks as the West is very sexist towards man...in a variety of ways...I am sick and tired of a man being called a paedophile for wanting to nurture for children...but when it is a woman this never happens...it is the 21st century...women are having thier equalities...now give us men some...My sister tells me it is odd...the foolish brain of an average human being is sick...If I am not cured and I cannot adopt...I do not really see myself worthy of living...I am in a point of no return...and I swear death is calling me...I want happiness...either it be a woman...or by the love of my adopted children... Crying
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I want to show the break of traditionalism and also help impose more diversity by this...(adopting white girls)

On top, I find children cute...I prefer girls more so than boys, but we all have our choices (please there are people who pray it is a boy or pray it is a girl when a child is in the mother's womb)...do not say this is perverted please...I am sick of this narrow minded thought...

I am not sure what I want to do if I could adopt, here is a mini-dream for me to think on away from my depression and miserable life:

-3 girls
-2 girls
-or one girl and one boy
-or 2 girls and one boy

Now I know I have to prove myself over the years in terms of:

-Financial
-Schedule
-Natural mother care methods/knowledge...
-Housing/environment
-Personality
-And most of all personal and professional approval i.e. family and work experience with evidence and contacts to all whom recommend me.

Now what I mean by work experience is:

-Go to primary/elementary schools and work there voluntarily,
-Go to care homes voluntarily and work,
-Go to orphanges
-Within all of this engage in activities with the children
-Foster some children within my younger years (once approved)
-Eventually adopt...

But this will start this year, I am 18 and I will hope that I can prove myself over the decade...I will inform to all the work experience I do...and thus make sure I get contact details and certificates to add to my personal profile...

Now this work experience is not work...it is only the professional term...I love children unconditionally...my heart ponders with joy when I see girls and boys...so cute...and innocent...sometimes I cry due to my problems...having children will take rid of my miseries...I literally love kids...I mean to a caring point...I have like 7 kids playing with me (on the street > a very close society) and I know perfectly well how to control them and love them...they love me...so sweet...and their mothers mentioned they see me as an idol...wow makes me feel special Crying
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If I cannot have the love of a woman...I would honorably sacrifice my life for adoptive daughters...so that when they grow to being young women...they can hug me and say they are proud of me...

Dam I have so many nurting, educational, games, adventurous, food experimentation etc etc etc etc....ideas.

I know I have to prove myself and this will be hard work.

Now all I am here for is, for advice, guidance, rules etc. It helps as a starting point...

I have been straight to the point...I cannot waste my time writing essays on my problems...I have written and researched consisting of over 120 pages of notes...

Please someone...guide me.... Crying
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